Brass Beam

I took a pill

I went to sleep for the first time in weeks

You kept me up

With all your manic energy

I had to go

I put it out just like a cigarette

I'd never be a girl

You'd like or trust or you'd respect

When I think about it I wanna punch the wall

When I remember everything I wonder

If I'll always feel small

You look for me

In the broken glass and styrofoam

Painting yourself

As a sufferer, a stepping stone

You work real hard

To herd your friends into a gallery

Narcissistic injury

Disguised as masterpiece

I just wanna run yeah I don't wanna fight

I just want to sing my songs

And sleep through the night

I endured your criticism

Self-loathing and all your doubt

I held you up above myself

Trying to ride it out

I got lost in your rendition of reality

All my offering

Rendered boring hyperbole

I couldn't see the sun from there, just a beam

I thought it would never come out yeah

I had to leave

I couldn't see the sun from there just a beam

I thought it would never come out yeah

I had to leave