In My Absence

Eyes that meet to say farewell

And linger through the sleepless nights

A trail of days that end in tears

But I can never be there

The rush of hours that never seem to end

What life has dealt, you cannot comprehend

I am the absentee

I know you're out there searching tonight

I'm right here

Another day and I cannot see through your eyes

I'm right here

How could I have known

What preceded your own thoughts

Wish that I could listen

To what only speaks inside

Every raging dissonance

Each jarring note

But I could never be there

How can you think

That I would understand

When words just go around

What the heart truly wants

I am the absentee

I know you're out there searching tonight

I'm right here

Another day and I cannot see through your eyes

I'm right here

I want to tell you

Of the exploding light

How everything is visible

Moments before the dark

I am never, never there

I know you're out there searching tonight

Another day and I'm not there

Thrust with nails of conflict, anxiety and pain

Through spells of anger, confusion and defeat

I wish I'd see me here in front of you

But I am not here

I know you're out there searching tonight

I'm right here

Another day and I cannot see though your eyes

I know you're out there

But I'm right here

Another day and I cannot see though your eyes

Lead me right