歌词
When I was young I hated drama
我年轻的时候讨厌这像出戏一般的生活
I never wanted to get caught up
我从不想被生活抓住把柄
I built these walls like I'm a martyr
我筑起一道墙就为了逃避这些磨难
It's just the way that I was brought up
当然我也就在这样的环境中长大
Yeah
Yeah
Ain't even talking to my mama, yeah
我甚至很少和我妈说过话
'Cause 'cause I been going through some trauma
因为我所经历过的这些创伤
I got this shit all on my conscience
让我的良心早已变得污垢不堪
I got this blood all on my collar
我的衣领上沾了少许的血
I'm not broke but I'm feeling so damn spent
我真的没事啊 我只是有些累了而已
Think I'm missing a place to lay my head
我想我错过了一个能让我安心的地方
Wish that we could go back when it all made sense
多希望我们还能在这一切变得有意义的时候回到过去
I'm alone in this city until the end
我独自一人呆在这城市浪荡 直到最后
I know it's been two months I need to call her
我知道已经隔了两月之久了 我还得再打给她
But I'm afraid of what she'll say so I don't bother
但我还是害怕她会说些什么让我再费心的话
I know she crying and my sister tryna calm her
我知道她在哭 姐姐还在一旁试着安慰着
Sometimes I really wish I had a father
有时我也希望我爸还能在那陪着她
Now all this karma got me feeling six deep
现在所有的这些因果报应让我感觉自己罪恶深重
I'm twenty six I really need a six speed
二十六岁的我真的很需要些
Something that'll really ****ng fix me
只有那些才能治愈我
'Cause I been on my own since I was sixteen
我从十六岁开始就只身一人
My auntie tell me I should feel accomplished
我姑姑告诉我人就应该有些成就感
But I'm so out of touch I wanna call quits
但我总感觉我与现实脱了节 我有些想放弃了
And I need dramamine 'cause I been falling
我的人生也就像是一场戏 我也不断在跌倒受伤
Emotion sickness seeping in my stomach
每当情绪涌起时我就感觉胃疼
I'm not broke but I'm feeling so damn spent
我真的没事啦 我只是感觉很累了
Think I'm missing a place to lay my head
我想我错过了一个还能让我安宁的地方
Wish that we could go back when it all made sense
多希望我们还能在一切变得有意义的时候回到过去
I'm alone in this city until the end
我只能孑然一身呆在这城市 直到最后
I'm tryna find myself
我也还在尝试着找回自我
I'm scared I'll let you down
我怕我会让你失望
It kept me up all night
就因为这个我彻夜难眠
I wanna make things right
我真的只想让这一切重回正轨
I'm not broke but I'm feeling so damn spent
我真没事 我就是太累了
Think I'm missing a place to lay my head
我想我又错过了一个让我觉得安定的地方
Wish that we could go back when it all made sense
多希望我们还能在这一切变得更有意义的时候再回到过去
I'm alone in this city until the end
我也只能在这城市形单影只直到最后了
Swear if I ever have a daughter
我发誓 如果我有一个女儿
She will always know her father
我会告诉她我年轻时的经历 她也会永远了解她的父亲到底是个什么样的人
And if I ever have a son, yeah
但如果我有一个儿子 好吧
I'mma teach him how to love and never falter
我就教他如何去爱 如何在生活面前永不低头
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