歌词
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
我不想自鲨，我他马不想死
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
我只想能够闭上眼睛，感觉一切都好
But every day I feel like dying
但每天我都感觉要死了
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
每天都感觉快死了
Why do I even try?
但我为什么还要尝试自救?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
我为什么还要写歌描述我如何一边过着这日子，一边在夜里与苦痛和心魔作斗争
Trying to find a new outlet
每当我试着找个新的发泄口
The devil pouncin'
恶鬼突袭
I hear him howlin', my vision cloudin'
我听到他嚎叫，我视线变得模糊
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
听我说，我想逃，但无路可逃
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh)
当我面对这痛苦，我试着变坚强些
But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options
我准备把棺材扔了，这样我的家人起码有选择权
Gotta work till' I'm dead
我得工作到死
So that they get the best
这样才能给他们最好的
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up
我不想树立坏榜样，因为小孩子们会向我看齐
Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok
我不能留下一堆烂摊子然后离开，不能让他们觉得你正常打卡下班就万事OK
So **** suicide I'm here to stay
所以去你马的自傻，我要留下
Try to free my mind
我试着放空自己
I don't know what's right
我不知道什么才是对的
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
浪费我所有时间，想要找到那束光
Try to free my mind
我试着放空自己
I don't know what's right
我不知道什么是对的
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (Nah, man)
浪费我所有时间，想要找到那束光（不）
I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now
现在我将狂奔，我要远离那样的自己了
Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now
击毙那些恶魔，找到摆脱这个地狱的路了
I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now
现在我要狂奔，我要狂奔了
Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
击毙那些恶魔，找到摆脱这个地狱的路了！
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
我不想自鲨，我他马不想死
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
我只想能够闭上眼睛，感觉一切都好
But every day I feel like dying
但每天我都感觉要死了
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
每天都感觉快死了
One too many bad thoughts inside me
我心里有太多糟糕的想法
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
我心里有个洞，把过去抛在身后
I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
时间催赶我，生活压迫我，我呼吸变成冰
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
我想我可能只会像往常一样更多地压抑情绪罢了
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
几乎站不稳，我爬过玄关
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
陷入床上，怀着死的念头
(Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
你发现的那张便条，它不是我的本意（指便条上有暗示自傻的留言）
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
只是希望我的存在更有意义
Never meant to let you down
从没想过让你失望
I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (****)
我情绪一直低落，现在催动想法，必须赶出它们（艹）
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
永不屈服，我向神发誓，即使无数次向神祈祷
I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
我不信命，我倒要看看我是不是永远醒不过来
But he called my bluff
但神看破了我的外强中干
Try to free my mind
我试着放空自己
I don't know what's right
我不知道什么才是对的
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
浪费我所有时间，想要找到那束光
Try to free my mind
我试着放空自己
I don't know what's right
我不知道什么是对的
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
浪费我所有时间，想要找到那束光
(nah, man)
（不）
I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now
现在我将狂奔，我要远离那样的自己了
Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now
击毙那些恶魔，找到摆脱这个地狱的路了
I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now
现在我要狂奔，我要狂奔了
Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
击毙那些恶魔，找到摆脱这个地狱的路了！
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
我不想自鲨，我他马不想死
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
我只想能够闭上眼睛，感觉一切都好
But every day I feel like dying
但每天我都感觉要死了
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
每天都感觉快死了
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
我不想自鲨，我他马不想死
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
我只想能够闭上眼睛，感觉一切都好
But every day I feel like dying
但每天我都感觉要死了
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
每天都感觉快死了
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