A Gift A Curse

What I've done what I've seen

The lives I've touched, what does it mean?

Losing track of everything

I gave it all but what did I gain

And I don't care what waits for me

On the other side of life's release

Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see

So even if I die I'll never rest in peace

I was desperate just to shine

Now I struggle constantly to survive

I, I have nothing to prove to you

What I've done what I've seen

The lives I've touched, what does it mean?

Losing track of everything

I gave it all but what did I gain

And I don't care what waits for me

On the other side of life's release

Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see

So even if I die I'll never rest in peace

And I tried so many times

To show that what I feel is real

No this is not a joke, but you keep pushing me

Yeah you keep pushing me

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All I know is lost, I'm alone in this

Silently I watch hoping you'd come back to me

All I know is lost, I'm alone in this

Silently I watch hoping you'd come back to me

Seems like I'll be [?] til the end

Knowing that I kept

Spitting in my [?]

I don't need your empty words or ******** sympathy

So here's a gift for all those years of mocking me

Now I will shove this evil upon you

You deserve to feel what I'm going through

Now I will shove this evil upon you

You deserve to feel what I'm going through