Disfigured

Repulsion of beauty drove me to hunt

A frenzy of self hate possessing me

Violated their bodies, stripped of their pride

Tortured and twisted until they have died

Hatred inside is all I would find

I despise what I see in the mirror

Sadistic hateful scum

I kill them but it's myself I hate

Now I'll do myself too

A straight razor will reshape my face

First my ears then my nose

Blood is gushing, continue to carve

Erase the face I hate

Now I'm hacking at my chest

A frenzy of self hate possessed me

Controls my actions, controls my thoughts

As I scrape away at my skin

I fill my tub, with alcohol

I plunge into the burning pool

The pain intense, my whole body

Is drenched in scalding liquid

Despite my pain I am able

To grab a lighter on the counter

The flint ignites, the flames erupt

I'm consumed in the inferno

Cauterize

My skin is charred

Regenerate

More loathsome than before

I despise what I see in the mirror

Sadistic hateful scum

The abomination before my eyes

A reflection of me

I see an image of disfigured evil

I've skinned myself alive

Dripping with blood and blistered by fire

The face I hate erased