歌词
Mama getting high up in the kitchen
妈妈在厨房的泣声愈来愈大
Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
爸爸不在那里，他很早就不见了
Nobody was there to even listen
没人在那能够倾听
I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah
所有的问题闭口不说，所有的感觉深埋于心
And I put the blame on me
我把因果归于自己
I put the blame on me
万千乱事
I put the blame on me
因我而起
Only 10 years old
年仅10岁
I'm already numb, yeah my heart's getting cold
我早已麻木不仁，心灰意冷
Saw my mama getting weaker, hurt me to my soul
看见妈妈日渐消瘦，痛感直击灵魂
The only man she loved, how could he do this to his girl
那个她曾深爱的人，怎能如此待她
He put that pistol to her head
枪口直指她的头
I swear he coulda shot her dead
我发誓他绝对下得了手
Man that liquor made him evil
酒精使他丧失理智
I swear that man ain't had no reason
我发誓他没有任何理由
That shit just turned him to a demon, yeah
那该死的烈酒把他变成了恶魔
Fast forward a couple years
匆匆两年后
I done turned 12
我已12
Living life one hell to the next hell
生活如同地狱，不见光明
I got cousins touching me inappropriately
我的表亲不当的侵犯我
And don't nobody believe me when I tell
我说出来，却没有人相信
When you learn that shit heals, ain't no one to look up to
当你知道狗改不了吃屎时，也就没有什么长幼尊卑可言
And the same people hurting you telling they love you
而那些同样伤害你的人口口声声说着爱你
Before too long you start believing
不久后，麻木的你开始相信
That maybe you're the reason, yeah
一切的因果，就是自己
Mama getting high up in the kitchen
妈妈在厨房的泣声愈来愈大
Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
爸爸不在那里，他很早就不见了
Nobody was there to even listen
没人在那能够倾听
I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah
所有的问题闭口不说，所有的感觉深埋于心
And I put the blame on me
我把因果归于自己
I put the blame on me, yeah
万千乱事
I put the blame on me
因我而起
Age 14 left East St. Louis
14岁离开东圣路易斯
New drama but I really ain't new to it
新的花花世界，对我来说实在算不上新鲜
Hear 'em laughing at lunchtime and I'm the joke
午餐时听到他们讥笑，而我就是那个笑话
Black and white was too black for the white folks
中性的肤色对白人来说太“黑”了
I can't do nothing 'bout my face
我又能对我的脸动什么手脚
Feeling all over the place
挫败感充斥着每个角落
Over something I can't control
有些事超出我的控制
**** is wrong with these people?
这些人是有什么毛病？
Or is it something wrong with me though? Yeah
或者说我才是问题所在？也许...
Age 16, life's still mean
16岁，生活依旧困苦
Mama fell hard, needed rescuing
妈妈肩担重任，需要解救
She got a new man, he told her simply
她有了新的他，他简单的对妈妈说
She could stay with him long as she don't bring me
“只要不带上你的女儿，我们就能在一起”
I guess she had to make a chose
我想妈妈不得不做出选择
Did what she had to do
去做她不得不做的事
Chose him over her own kid
择偶弃子
I don't know what would make her do this
我不知是什么让她这样决定
Had to be something I did, ooh
一定又是我吧
Mama getting high up in the kitchen (eh)
妈妈在厨房的泣声愈来愈大
Daddy wasn't there, he was missing (eh)
爸爸不在那里，他很早就不见了
Nobody was there to even listen (yeah, yeah)
没人在那能够倾听
I kept all my problems
所有的问题闭口不说
And kept feelings hidden, yeah (ooh) yeah
所有的感觉深埋于心
And I put the blame on me (blame on me)
我把因果归于自己
I put the blame on me (ooh) yeah
万千乱事
I put the blame on me (blame on me)
因我而起
I was homeless till I turned 18
18岁时，我已经无家可归
Started living with a man I was dating
开始和一个男孩约会，共同生活
Last thing on my mind was graduating
最后在我脑海的是从中获得的教育
All about survival and money-making
都是为了赚钱活命
Always seemed to escape my reality
似乎总是想要逃离我的现实
Just tryna play the cards, goddamn me
只想玩玩牌，该死的我怎能这样想！
Posted myself singing a song 'cause it was on my heart
把我的故事写进唱的歌里，只因一切发自内心
When it went viral I was working in Walmart
歌火起来的时候我还在沃尔玛打工
I got a new start
我开始了新旅程
Taking my pain, turning it into art
拾起伤痛，将其投入创作
Turning bad times into hot sounds
把糟糕的时光化为激情的嗓音歌唱
For the first time where I belong
唱给我第一次拥有的地方
20 now, making moves, making money now
现在，我20岁，不断前行，不断挣钱
Rainy days hella sunny now
曾经阴郁雨天，今已晴空万里
But every now and then I think about
但如今时常回想
Mama getting high up in the kitchen (eh)
妈妈在厨房的泣声愈来愈大
Daddy wasn't there, he was missing (eh)
爸爸不在那里，他很早就不见了
Nobody was there to even listen (yeah, yeah)
没人在那能够倾听
I kept all my problems
所有的问题闭口不说
And kept feelings hidden, yeah (ooh) yeah
所有的感觉深埋于心
And I put the blame on me (blame on me)
我把因果归于自己
I put the blame on me (ooh) yeah
万千乱事
I put the blame on me (blame on me)
因我而起
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