Solitude of Enoch

It's hard to say, every sentence is pain

Brothers killing brothers, descendants of Cain

Props if getting knocked, and no mentionin' names

Had to steel, all that time I spent in the flame

Cain rose up against Abel, his brother, and slew him

Got to be in grace first, to fall from it

That money chase birthed the fall summit

Was wasteful as big eyes and a small stomach

Funny used to call my friends money, I lost hundreds

From low lands, shook of no man, God fearin'

Had death threats, not deaf yet, I'm hard hearin'

Revenge is the engine, with my heart steerin'

Enough disastrous crashes, had to start veerin'

Had to use your fists to change your fiscal

Figurin' how to get rich became the ritual

As teens bought full magazines, if we had an issue

We all had beef, but for dinner havin' gristle

All hooded, even headed in doubt, I'm sure-footed

Fear built relationships rapport couldn't

Being angelic get you popped, saying somethin' that's off-putting

Feeling weak for being in love, like amour shouldn't

Was action packed, cut your cap just to hate hub

For years spoke the code like every place bugged

Since them dudes in school, move like I taste blood

Fights bought forty nights, like the great flood

Still a nexus to the treacherous gutter

Kept two, never monochrome, my gift technicolor

Like the coat of Joseph, hope it don't affect my brother

Became man of the house quick, had to protect my mother

One of my cousins said he was gon' beat me like my pops

I blacked out, was ready to leave him in a box

My sister calmed me down, saw me reachin' for the shots

That's my linchpin, since then, we been on the rocks

It's hard to say, every sentence is pain

Brothers killing brothers, descendants of Cain

Props if getting knocked, and no mentionin' names

I had to steel, all that time I spent in the flame

Every sentence is pain

Descendants of Cain

Let him among you who is without sin cast the first stone

May your life be fruitful if I appeal to you

I'm defense against ten trying to conceal the truth

Breaded when I medicine, that's what a healer do

Out here was too rough to bluff, every dealer knew

Don't mind if it was gross, this hope's genetic

Did the most to cope when the coast wasn't copacetic

When I rapped to you it's natural, no synthetic

Survivors of my father, it's my old genetic

I rhyme like divinity

Times the inner me cry from the imagery

Where we stood, no neighborhood sinner-free

From the curb, if any deserve to win it's me

To quiet the stomach, we had to rummage

Father gave it all denominations, but wanted hundreds

I wanted hundreds

I wanted hundreds

You got it poppin' at the top of the mornin'

Couldn't imagine what mothers on gutter blocks was endurin'

We took the hits, 'cause the knot was allurin'

My boy back up top, got popped for his urine

If a man slips, bent grip on his vice

We try our best to get it, could triple the price

Though crew did it for food, not to be drippin' in ice

Pray the stocks stack on my blocks, but liquid is nice

Known to throw trips, show fifths, dip with the dice

Dusk to dawn, much go on, no ubiquitous nights

To get paid out trade route like you shippin' a spice

The meek heard "Turn the other cheek", I got different advice

I got different advice