Nick Kwas Christmas Party

I spend a lot of time above water

In fact, I spend most of my time in my room

Lately that's made me wonder

If I've given up on trying to be someone new

Because I don't like who I see

Each morning when I look in the mirror

In fact it's the only thing I fear

That I'm empty inside these bones and

I'm not scared of ghosts

I embrace them all as friends

Because one day I'll be dead

And they will know my name

So I've been counting down my life

Existing in hours

To see what I have left

And If I see 25, I'll be surprised

And If I see 32, I'll take every letter I wrote to you

And bury them alive, bury them alive

And If I see 44, well I haven't thought that far