Through My Prayers

Hard to believe

I won't see you again

We were just fighting when winter began

The coldness of our words competing with the wind from the north.

Still they make me shiver but in a very different way

The pages of the calendar kept turning away

I have some better words now but it's too late to say them to you.

My dream of all dreams and my hope of all hopes

Is only to tell you and make sure you know

How much I love you and how much

I always did.

And yes I know you loved me,

I can see it in your eyes

And it was in your struggle and it was in your mind

And it was in the smile you gave me when

I was a kid

Feels like no one understands

And my only chance

To talk to you is through my prayers.

I only wanted to tell you

I cared Every night after and every day since,

I found myself crying when the memory hit.

Sometimes it knocks me down, sometimes

I just put it away.

Down in my mind where

I don't care to go

The pain of a lesson is letting me know

If you have love in your heart let it show while you can

Yes now I understand

But now my only chance

To talk to you is through my prayers.

I only wanted to tell you

I cared. I only wanted to tell you

I cared.