I Just Need an Early Night

You know I like my time alone

Especially when rain falls and winter comes

Tired of this world

I wonder: Do I need a different one?

Do I need to change the way I see the place we live?

Do I even care enough to give a sxxt?

The answer is I probably do

'Cause sometimes you're blind to what's in front of you

Open eyes can shift a shade of blue to a warmer hue

Depending on the time

Or when the summer skies begin to fade and be replaced

Evoking changes in your mind

I feel I need to find a way out of this mess I made

Go inside, hibernate, and pray

Everything will fall right into place

They always say just give it time

Does that mean I should leave it to some divine

Power higher than what we are?

Can't say I've been a believer in a "God"

But I've always had this feeling pulling me to what's beyond

Dust to dust

Is that all there is of us?

Delayed rent payments, late nights, laughter and getting drunk

Getting lost alone

Just to find myself amidst the contemplation of yesterday

Well, lately I've been getting better at shutting the door to the weather,

Like staying warm when it's cold in December, yeah

If they say "life's a bxxch," I just need an early night

So that when I rise under solemn skies

I'll be glad to know I never hit reply

When death was blowing up my line

I'll keep her out my head today

Despite her slightly thicker thighs and dark demeanor

She said life's a bxxch and I don't need her

"Come along with me, I can take you far away from your demons"

Her subtle whispers echo in a tortured mind

Find somebody else, my love, 'cause honestly I'm doing fine

You've done enough, I'm ready to take on the world

And despite all of those luscious curls, listen, girl

Yeah, what we had was nothing deep

All I needed was some sleep

I'm sure you'll still find all your pleasure

As another mother weeps.