Closer

Pencilin' on a pad

I been on my thoughts, like crazy, I need you back

Prayers to the most high when I’m most high

**** a good day, I'm happier when I'm sad

I been on the road and speakin’ to no one else

The money come in low, I'm dealin' with what I'm dealt

This is for my unborn child, needed my help

I'm lookin' for the type of the freedom that I ain't felt

It's only gone to waste if you buyin’ a Gucci belt

But we Gucci when we excel and that Gucci is not for sale

Damn, don’t you leave me when I rebel

My baby says she loves me, but she needs me to be myself

Room full of vultures, cool, I'm coastin’

You be boastin', chain on flex, but you be chokin'

Ain't no jokin’, I been floatin'

Off that green I'm smokin', they don't want this

Smoke when I step up, east side resident

Drink club president, made it out the ends and I'm the evidence

Still gotta check on my mama, make sure she good

She loves it when I come back for Christmas and eat the food

There's nothin' like a blessing that's precious to what you do

I'm learnin' to be honest with people that needed truth

I'm keepin' it one hundred, I'm hopin' you keep it, too

See, growin' is a process, I needed to see it through

Damn

Is this what you want from me?

I give you all of me

What it's supposed to be

I'm learnin', I'm keepin' you closer

Scared that my heart's gone colder

Grindin' it out 'til it's over

Take hold, and now you know

Workin' it once I can

Promise is forever, I'm startin' to understand

The boulder's on my shoulders, I'm startin' to take a stand

I gotta show the way for our people to make it out

I was youth club killin'

Kickin' bull when they gave the notice for eviction

Sixteen had about five bills for it

I gave it to my moms and told her I was down for it

She told me that it's cool, that's at least a couple months

I could tell by the look on her face it wasn't enough

**** it, we roll with the punches 'cause that's what's up

And our people would try and front

I try not to go there, but **** it, it's what they want

I never live my life for the vision of someone else

I really gotta see, get a feel for it for myself

Couple years back I was feelin' it with my health

Yeah, I put on weight, I was hidin' from what I felt

Bills, bills, bills had me feelin' like I ain't s**t

Splashed a couple thousand, was strugglin' with the rent

Thinkin' to myself, "How I get this deep?

How I'm deep in the hole, and how my fam don't know?"

Tryna keep the smile good to avoid convo

But that s**t build up and them tears build up

So if you're lookin' for a shoulder you can lean on

Just to get the steam off, thinkin' what I kept closed up

Damn

Is this what you want from me?

I give you all of me

What it's supposed to be

I'm learnin', I'm keepin' you closer

Scared that my heart's gone colder

Grindin' it out 'til it's over

Take hold, and now you know

That I been patient lately

And though I been racin' lately

All I know is darkness lately

Ahh, yeah (Ahh, yeah)

Prayin' that this world don't take me, no

Everything I gave to my heart and soul

I'm in need for somethin' that is real and not false

Love me as I am, no, when I go and I know

I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know...