What I Wish I Never Had

Don't catch me at the wrong time

Or you will feel my wrath

The one I wished I never had.

I need to rid myself of resentment

And every last bit of it

If I'm going to live up to the things I've written

I need to clear my mind of this anger

And all the rage that I've held near

If I'm going to live up to the words I've spoken.

But I haven't yet,

Letting go is how I can start to fight my way

Out of this trench I've dug

In this war against myself

But I haven't yet.

Don't catch me at the wrong time

Or you will feel my wrath

The one I wished I never had.

I wish I never had this demon inside

I wish I knew how to cast it out

I wish I never had this demon inside

I wish I knew how to cast it out

But I fear it will never leave me. x2

I need to rid myself of resentment

And every last bit of it

If I'm going to live up to the things I've written

I need to clear my mind of this anger

And all the rage that I've held near

If I'm going to live up to the words I've spoken.

Letting go, just let it go

I know. x2

I know I need to let go

Of everything that has

Ever made me think of myself better

I'm not better than anyone else

Of anything that's filled me with anger

That I have taken out on everyone else.

These demons will never leave me

I can only find ways to not let them out

These demons will never leave me

But I control them

Not the other way around.