It Hasn't Happened Yet

I was crossing the snow fields

In front of the

Capital building.

It was Christmas, and

I was alone.

Strange city.

Strangers for friends.

And I was broke.

As the carollon sang its song

I dreamt of success.

I would be the best.

I would make my folks proud.

I would be happy... -

It hasn't happened yet -

It hasn't happened yet -

It hasn't happened

Yes, there are nods in my direction

Clap of hands

The knowing smile

But still

I'm scared again

Foot slipped

Pebbles fall and so did

I - Almost (I'm high)

On Yosemite

The big grey wall (Fear of falling)

Where to put my foot next (Fear of failure)

I'm afraid

I'm going to fall (Be at one with the mountain)

I whispered in the air (Fear of falling, fear of falling, fear of failure...Failure)

Fear of losing my hair (Falling, falling, falling...)

When is the mountain scaled?

When do I feel

I haven't failed?

I've got to get it together, man (It hasn't happened yet) -

It hasn't happened yet -

It hasn't happened yet -

It hasn't happened

People come up and say hello

OK I can get to the front of the line

But you have to ignore the looks

And... yet

I'm waiting for that feeling of contentment

That ease at night when you put your head down

And the rhythms slow to sleep

My head sways

And eyes start awake

I'm there not halfway between sleep and death

But looking into

Eyes wide open

Trying to remember

What I might have done

Should have done

At my age

I need serenity

I need peace -

It hasn't happened yet -

It hasn't happened yet -

It hasn't happened yet -

It hasn't happened