Can't Believe I Had You

I'm finding it hard to live with myself--

this grief, and the mistakes I have made.

I've been trying to find the words to say to you.

But as the days come to an end, I--

I just sit and lay with my head in my hands.

Staring out into a world where nothing stares back at me

apart from a memory of you.

You were my best friend, my savior, my soulmate.

You were everything to me.

I know that everything we once knew has changed

and that you no longer see me as the person I once was;

but, that person is still here.

There is a burden in being misunderstood.

A burden I carry with me every day.

And I know it sounds over the top but, you were the only one who ever understood me.

I can't believe I had you, and I hope that one day, you forgive me.

I'll never, ever forget you.