歌词
My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
思维就像万花筒一样，运转得目不暇接
Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
模糊了所有色彩，使我无法看清过去
The last mistake, the choice I made
最后的错误，最后的选择
Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
凝视着镜子中的自己
Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
我时常害怕自己内幕隐藏的想法
Nowhere to hide inside my mind
但脑海中无处可藏
I'm scared that you'll compare and
我唯恐你会比较
I'll look a lifetime past repair
我这无法弥补的一生
I second guess myself to death,
接着我臆测死亡的到来
I re-solicit every step
悔恨每一步而再次征求
What if my words are meaningless?
如果我的诺言没有价值怎么办？
What if my heart's misleading this?
如果我的心将我引至错误的方向怎么办？
I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
我尝试捕捉发生的每一刻
Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
让水晶瓶中的记忆陪伴着我
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
当晨曦的希望在我心底逐渐消逝时
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
我不敢接受黑暗
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
是晨曦的希望赋予我奋战的价值
I will not be giving in tonight
今夜我将不再屈服
When I'm old and grey, or thirty,
当我苍颜白发，逝于年华
or whatever happens first,
或是噩耗先降示了
I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
我需要你来确认我没有任何疏漏
Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
或者更糟，如果我生命中所有的努力只满足了我自己
Like never let you get a word in,
比如在我解剖我的心理健康时
while I dissect my mental health
从不听取你的虔诚
Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
或缺乏，无论什么，有些东西已无法追溯
I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
我真的无法记得我到底是不是疯狂或彻夜难眠
Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
现在，每个孩童都欲想疯狂，想要诊断自己
Trade up made up epidemics,
高价物流编造的流行病
pass around prescription pills
到处递着的处方药
But my disorder can't be cured
但是我的病症无法被
by a bottle, blade, or dose
滴瓶，手术刀或药剂治疗
Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
自私和自我厌恶的情绪往往如风围绕着我
But I don't wanna let you see that,
但是我不想你看到
I don't want my friends to know
也不想给朋友知道
Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
不管我去哪，自私和自我厌恶都如影随形
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
当晨曦的希望在我心底逐渐消逝时
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
我没有勇气接受黑暗的同行
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
是晨曦的希望赋予我奋战的价值
I will not be giving in tonight
今夜我将不再屈服
Try as I might to keep it together
尽全力将一切美好维持
Why is recovery taking forever
为什么恢复如此漫长永无止境？
Fool the whole world, just until I get better
欺骗全世界，直到我感到好一些
I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
我吓坏了，我将永远演下去
On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
无了无休的探求，我脑子里到底出了什么故障
I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
我不是一定要寻求答案，但是我还是希望今晚可以穷尽
All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
所有我无法解释的痛苦不会被麻痹
All the secrets silenced by the shame
所有秘密都会因为羞耻而悄无声息
Don't make me say it
别让我说出口
Don't make me say it
我不想说出口
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
当晨曦的希望在我心底逐渐消逝时
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
我没有勇气接受黑暗的同行
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
由是晨曦的希望赋予我奋战的意义
I will not be giving in tonight
今晚我不会倒下也不会屈服！
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