If Winter Ends

I dreamt of a fever

one that would cure me of this cold winter-set heart

With heat to melt these frozen tears

burned with reasons as to carry on

Into these twisted months I plunge without a light to follow

but I swear that I would follow anything

just get me out of here

But you get six months to adapt

And you get two more to leave town

And in the event that you do adapt

We still might not want you around

But I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose

but I know that that's impossible now

and so i drink to stay warm

and to kill selected memories

because I just can't think anymore about that

or about her tonight

but i give myself three days to feel better

or else i swear i'll drive right off a ******* cliff

Because if I can't learn to make myself feel better

how can I expect anyone else to give a *******

and i scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere

just get me past this dead and eternal snow

Cause I swear that I'm dying

slowly but it's happening

and if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere

just take me there just take me there just take me there

and say, and lie to me, and say, and lie to me, and say

it's going to be alright

It's gonna be all right...