歌词
Man, I don't even know what happened
我不知道发生了什么
I was born inside of this sx1t
我自出生就身处这糟糕的环境中
My fvxkin' parents scrappin', I was mortified as a kid
我的父母总是在打架，作为他们的孩子我感到羞愧
Police always at my house all because of my daddy's temper
警察总是光顾我家，只因我爸那可怕的脾气
Man, this sx1t been goin' on 'bout as long as I can remember
这些破事自我记事起就一直在发生着
He always blamed my mom for this sx1t he didn't accomplish
我爸总是因为他自己也做不到的事情责怪我妈
I'd hide in the corner like a guinea pig in the process
这时我只能像个豚鼠一样躲在角落里
Just knowin' he 'bout to smack the fvxkin' teeth out her mouth
因为我知道他会过来打碎我的牙
It's like when it came to some type of drama
这就像是某种戏剧里上演的那样
He got aroused, no joke
不开玩笑，他真的上头了
There was the moments where dad would slowly be creepin' up
这样的时刻里他的怒火会慢慢升起
I would jump in front of my mama, "Please don't beat her up"
我会跳起来挡在我妈的身前：“请不要打她！”
I ain't never spoke on this sx1t, the memories are rough
我从来不谈论这些破事，那些瞬间就这样爆发
Smiles and hugs, that's just somethin' you'll never see in us
你永远不会看到我们之间的微笑和拥抱
You know the pain when your parents tell you to go and play
你懂得那种痛苦，当你的父母让你自己去玩
Then hours later you see your mom and she got a swollen face
几个小时后你却看到母亲被打肿的脸
I hope you don't relate, I just learned how to cope today
我希望你不会感同身受，现在我学会了如何去处理
From the days when I would pick up the phone and say
从那些日子中学习，那时我会拿起电话然后说：
I gotta leave here now
现在我要离开这里
My mom and dad actin' crazy and this ain't right
我的父母已经疯了，本不应如此
And they've been goin' back and forth all night
他们已经反复争吵了一整晚
I wanna stay at your house tonight
所以今夜我想留在你的家里
'Cause I don't wanna to hear my dad fightin' momma no more
因为我再也不想听到我爸殴打我妈了
I don't wanna hear the police at the front door
我不想听见警察出现在我家门口的声音
Can I stay at your house?
我可以留在你的家里吗？
I want to stay at your house tonight (Your house tonight)
今夜我想留在你的家里
I would go to school feelin' so frightened, yeah, I was scared
我总是胆战心惊地去上学，是的我很害怕
Not knowin' if I'ma go home findin' my momma dead
无法预料是否当我回家时母亲已经死了
Every other fvxkin' day, dad was always losin' control
每隔一天我爸就会变得失控
He was actin' like a fvxkin' ape, runnin' loose in our home
他就像只发了疯的人猿，在家里挣脱了束缚
Man ever since I was born they was pessimistic and torn
自从我出生后，他们就变得如此悲观又犹豫
It's evident, but regardless they'd never get a divorce
这很显然，但不管怎样他们还是没有离婚
God, I wish they got around it, just checkin' into some counselin'
天啊我真希望他们能处理好他们的关系，去做些咨询也好
We could have been a happy family inside our house again
在这房子里我们本可以重新拥有幸福的家庭
I said again is if we ever were, that's false
我这样说好像我们曾经幸福过一样，其实这不是真的
Sx1t I dealt with growin' up, will forever hurt, I'm lost
我成长过程中经历的这些将永远地刺痛我，我已经迷惘了
We weren't nothin' like the families I used to see on the sitcoms
我们从不像那些我看过的情景剧里的家庭
We were horrible with bonds, I can no longer sit calm
我们的关系糟透了，我没法冷静地坐在那里
I would see that my friends had a life at home, that was peaceful
我唯一能看见的就是我的朋友们拥有的安宁的生活
They were lovable people, who didn't function like we do
他们都是好人，从来不会像我们一样
Oh how I wish I can redo the pain of the wicked days
我多希望我能让那些痛苦和扭曲的日子重来
When I'd pick up the telephone, call a friend and say
那些日子里我拿起电话，打给我的朋友对他说：
I gotta leave here now
现在我要离开这里
My mom and dad actin' crazy and this ain't right
我的父母已经疯了，本不应如此
And they've been goin' back and forth all night
他们已经反复争吵了一整晚
I wanna stay at your house tonight
所以今夜我想留在你的家里
'Cause I don't wanna to hear my dad fightin' momma no more
因为我再也不想听到我爸殴打我妈了
I don't wanna hear the police at the front door
我不想听见警察出现在我家门口的声音
Can I stay at your house?
我可以留在你的家里吗？
I wanna stay at your house tonight (Your house tonight)
今夜我想留在你的家里
I ain't placin' the blame sayin' it's mom or dad's fault
我不会随意责怪，认为这是父母的错
But all those traumas I had stuck with me as an adult
但所有这些创伤一直伴随我直至成人
And it ignited these mad thoughts that I seem to have often
并且点燃这些我时常会有的疯狂念头
Yeah, that's Hopsin, music is where my last straw went
是的，这就是我Hopsin，音乐是我能抓住的最后一根稻草
Now I'm devoted to always give you my true life
现在我总是尽力地向你们展现我真实的生活
The love I never felt growin' up I get it from you guys
我成长的过程中从未感受过的爱，我却从你们的身上感受到了
Please don't get it twisted, I love both my parents to death
但不要曲解了我的意思，我至死都爱着我的父母
I just think there's issues a lot of fvxkin' parents neglect
我只是觉得有那么多不称职的父母都忽视了这些事情
We all got these traumas we carry and sometimes it's scary
我们都经历过这些创伤，有时这很可怕
'Cause we buried a nest, right there in our chest
因为我们在内心深处埋葬了巢穴
And we subconsciously air and project our nightmares and the stress
我们无意识地晾晒与投射着我们的梦魇与痛苦
That we dealt with when we were younger
那些我们在过去经历过的
And that's why therapy's best, listen
这就是为什么治疗是最好的办法，听着
If you got kids of your own and you throwin' tantrums
如果你为人父母却总是在发泄怒火
Don't be oblivious and assume that it won't impact them
不要毫不在意地认为这不会影响他们
Children follow the protocol of their parents' blueprint
孩子总是遵循着父母们蓝图中的协议（孩子会模仿父母的行为）
So when there's an issue, they might handle it just how you did (You did, you did)
所以当这样的事情发生，他们可能会处理得像你一样差劲
I gotta leave here now
现在我要离开这里
My mom and dad actin' crazy and this ain't right
我的父母已经疯了，本不应如此
And they've been goin' back and forth all night
他们已经反复争吵了一整晚
I wanna stay at your house tonight
所以今夜我想留在你的家里
'Cause I don't wanna to hear my dad fightin' momma no more
因为我再也不想听到我爸殴打我妈了
I don't wanna hear the police at the front door
我不想听见警察出现在我家门口的声音
Can I stay at your house?
我可以留在你的家里吗？
I wanna stay at your house tonight (Your house tonight)
今夜我想留在你的家里
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