歌词
I waste my time on my whole life
自始至终我都在浪费时间
Hold my thoughts cuz I've been sleep deprived
保留意见只因夜不能寐
I waste my life in broke mind
在破碎的意识中消磨生命
Hold my words cuz they never come out right
谨言慎行只因词不达意
I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
竭尽全力成为你眼中欢愉
I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be be fine
全心全意相信能求得安宁
I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find
这般努力，或许我会察觉
That my reflection in life isn't all that unkind
一生映像并不尽是刻薄无情
Can't I be a little self sure
为何我无法做到自信不疑
Self secure On that I'm not all that I think I am
以自己并没有那么不堪为由自我安慰
Can't I get a little control
为何我无法把握任何事物
Open my doors,On that I'm not all that bad as I think i am
以自己并不是十分差劲为由敞开心门
I don't really care for what I have left
我不为自己造成的恶果忏悔
Because i ****** myself up so much,I might deserve all this mess
因为像我这般的人注定不会成功
**** all this love,Because I hate to admit
去他妈的热血激情，我真的不想承认
That I'm really like this,Just Scum piece of ****
自己就是这样一个狗屁不如的废物
And I know I could be brighter
我知道，我本应过得更好
Yeah I know I could aim higher
本可追逐更高目标
I know I should think lighter
本该怀揣美好希望
I know i'll be fine if I was a tryer
如果我曾试图改变，一切都会截然不同
Yeah,I hate how I can't let myself hang low
我痛恨颓废而又茫然的自己
If I didn't speak at all I think I would let it go
如果我不倾诉，也许会装作无事发生
But if I could say how I hurt I would promise to let you know
但如果我能将痛楚清晰表述，你绝对会感同身受
But I've been feeling godamn low,well I just can't let it go
但我太他妈颓丧了，无法麻痹自己
Do you remember 2013
你还记得2013年吗
From then on I wished my life was unseen
从那时起，我希望这辈子不曾开始
Cuz I hate who I could have been,Let myself slit up my skin
因为我憎恶着拥有希望的自己，企图从妄想的虚壳中逃离
And drown all my dreams,Going down In the sink
把所有梦想沉溺，窒息在水底
I'm sorry maybe I should have tried harder
抱歉，或许是我不够努力
Jumped from a bridge that was just that little bit higher
可能我应该从再高一点的桥上一跃而下
I'm sorry My words can't be any sharper
抱歉我的言辞还不够尖利直接
But I'd cut up my mind and set the remains on fire
我宁愿撕碎自己的意识并付之一炬
Yeah,At least you could have said I'm gone on the drugs
好吧，你可以说我嗑药了
But I am sober now and I still seem to **** up
但我却无比清醒，并准备好迎接下一个失败
But I'm sorry I can't accept all your love,It wears me off
很抱歉我不能接受你所有的感情，与我而言这是负担
Leave me in my head because that's tiring enough?
让我浸没在自我的梦境中，我够累了
I waste my time on my whole life
终其一生我只会浪费时间
Hold my thoughts cuz I've been sleep deprived
闭关自守，彻夜难眠
I waste my life in broke mind
在残留的余梦中无声泯灭
Hold my words cuz they never come out right
缄口不语，言不由衷
I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
千方百计成为你心中白月
I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be fine
想方设法假装我一切尚可
I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find
如此用心，或许我会明白
The reflection in life isn't all that unkind
这世间值得
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