Silence

Silence -Jarren Benton /Sareena Dominguez

Time is tickin'yeah it's tickin'away

I waited all my life to say

My misery hates company

I'm at a loss for words that's a first for me

Silence is golden

Go through the motions

Silence is golden

The same color that my throne is

Yeah d**n can't believe that my homeboy dead

I still feel shocked like I'm shot in the head

I woke up and cried 'til my eyes turned red

I wish it was a nightmare that I just had

The coroner just put my n**ga in a bodybag

And his mama turned away cause she cannot witness that

And I ain't know what to say when I was standin'with your dad

Only thing that I could think was godd**n this is sad

Man we was just laughin'on the weekend

That was your goodbye guess it just sinked in

No words that I can jot with the ink pen

To describe the way I feel I guess I'm still grievin'

I wish that I could bring my n**ga back

He ain't even know how much he meant to me and that was wack

That I couldn't even express it 'til he layin'on his back

At his f**kin'funeral when I ain't know how to react

Yeah we supposed to get rich together

God had another plan for you that was better

I send a prayer to your mama and your whole family

Rest in peace dog you my homeboy forever

Yeah I know you livin'in the sky

I wish I had a better way to tell my n**ga bye

Make sure you cherish every moment that you spend with your people

Cause you never know tomorrow they could die

Uh you believed in me homie yeah and for that I thank you

I know you're in a better place

Probably up in heaven crackin'jokes with them angels

Never be forgotten as I'm writin'over violins

I feel alone like I'm on my own island

I think about my n**ga every day like

I'm at a loss for words as I drown in the silence

Time is tickin'yeah it's tickin'away

I waited all my life to say

My misery hates company

I'm at a loss for words that's a first for me

Silence is golden

Go through the motions

Silence is golden

The same color that my throne is

Yeah d**n there we go not speakin'again

Out the front door a n**ga leavin'again

I rode around the city pissed off about some bullsh*t you said

Make me feel like I ain't breathin'again

I get back and we ain't talked to each other for like two days

D**n girl who pissed in your kool aid

I apologize a trillion times make it a trillion one

But this time I'm too late

Yeah I guess you fed up with my sh*t

To get through that cold heart I need an ice pick

The look on your iris so lifeless remember them good times

We had that was priceless

D**n did I f**k you up that bad

You need space now I guess I respect that

I'm tryna break through them walls that you put up

But I don't even know where your head at

Yeah I guess I better let her fly away

It's hard to cope with the pain I wanna die today

I'll find a f**kin'hideaway to hibernate

I sit and let this liquor wash the hurt like a tidal wave

And oh yeah by the way

If I could take all the hurt back I'd find a way

I guess I'll pop another pill so I can sleep and let my brains cook

Like I put my head inside a microwave

Yeah now I feel like a loser

I knew all the wrong I was doin'I would lose her

Now I see the light amen hallelujah

But I'm stuck in my sh*t like I sit in cow manure

World went crashin'when I lost my co pilot

Ringin'in my head somebody turn off the sirens

She ain't even talk to a n**ga and it hurts so bad

Now all I do is drown in your silence

Time is tickin'yeah it's tickin'away

I waited all my life to say

My misery hates company

I'm at a loss for words that's a first for me

Silence is golden

Go through the motions

Silence is golden

The same color that my throne is