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When the dawn breaks and my eyes open All I see is dust

Exhausted and beat I come back home A heart full of dust

She went ahead Left me behind A hole in my heart

Sometimes I think to myself This single studio Maybe she is still around

Is she still looking after me In the instant glimpse I thought I saw your silhouette

The noisiness of the city The sounds flooding Drowning deep into the night

At that time you showed Vulnerable and gentle Like the thorn infiltrating

We sink into a vacuum Naked and raw Enthralled in it all

Forgetting the once unconditional advocation from outside the bubble

Even so In this moment I still see you in all your glory

Difficultly insignificant the haunting solitude Is it all temporary

The future is distant Day after day the dust accumulating

No one inquired No one responded All that is left are obscurities

Once like a sweeping hurricane now it is all just debris Looming over the flickering dreams

Deprived of slumber I dare not say I am worn Sluggishly I return to dust

My appearance blurring Losing shape Gradually forgetting the meaning

The candlelight indifferently staring Weary and no longer caring

Dancing in the dim light Dust permeated when the flame was extinguished

I must clean I must work The purpose of our existence as human

Does warning work Does irony work Would loneliness work if became romantic

Would it work Would I be useful Or just wasting away

I live in the dust The dust lives in me Nothing can escape this adversity

I would rather be dust than become a maggot I would fill the ocean relentlessly

Time is sedated The granted existence from the distant past to this night

The present ordinary does not represent a lifetime

Heart deliberate Body in stride Collecting steadily and sturdily existing

You speak so neutrally

But how could you

I can not suppress these emotions

Powerless against the tide

How would you hold the oar on a cruise ship

I lie on my back and drift along

Guard your boundless heart

Yes Your invaluable boundless heart