Mind Playing Tricks on Me

I sit alone in my four-cornered room starin' at candles.Oh what **** is on?

Let me drop some **** like this here

At night I can't sleep, I toss and turn

Candle sticks in the dark, visions of bodies bein' burned

Four walls just starin' at a *****

I'm paranoid, sleepin' with my finger on the trigger

My mother s always stressin' I ain't livin' right

But I ain't goin' out without a fight

See, everytime my eyes close

I start sweatin', and blood starts comin' out my nose

It's somebody watchin' the AK

But I don't know who it is, so I'm watchin' my back

I can see him when I'm deep in the covers

When I awake I don't see the ************

He owns a black hat like I own

A black suit and a cane like my own

Some might say, "Take a chill, B"

But **** that ****, there s a ***** tryin' to kill me

I'm pumpin' in the clip when the wind blows

Every twenty seconds got me peepin' out my window

Investigatin' the joint for traps

checkin' my telephone for taps

I'm starin' at the woman on the corner

It's ****** up when your mind is playin' tricks on you

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I make big money, I drive big cars

Everybody know me, it's like I'm a movie star

But late at night, somethin' ain't right

I feel I'm bein' tailed by the same sucker's head lights

Is it that fool that I ran off the block

Or is it that ***** last week that I shot

Or is it the one I beat for five thousand dollars

Thought he had Caine but it was gold medal flour

Reach under my seat, grabbed my popper for the suckers

Ain't no use to be lyin', I was scareder than a ************

But they're laughin' at pow pies and buried that quick

If it's goin' down let's get this **** over with

Here they come, just like I figured

I got my hand on the ************' trigger

What I saw'll make your ass start gigglin'

Three black, crippled and crazy senior citizens

I live by the sword

I take my boys everywhere I go

Because I'm paranoid

I keep lookin' over my shoulder and peepin' around corners

My mind is playin' tricks on me

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Day by day it's more impossible to cope

I feel like I'm the one that's doin' ****

Can't keep a steady hand because I'm nervous

Every Sunday mornin' I'm in service

Playin' for forgiveness

And tryin' to find an exit out of the business

I know the Lord is lookin' at me

But yet and still it's hard for me to feel happy

I often drift while I drive

Havin' fatal thoughts of suicide

Bang and get it over with

And then I'm worry free, but that's ********

I got a little boy to look after

And if I died then my child would be a bastard

I had a woman down with me

But to me it seemed like she was down to get me

She helped me out in this ****

But to me she was just another *****

Now she's back with her mother

Now I'm realizin' that I love her

Now I'm feelin' lonely

My mind is playin' tricks on me

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This year Halloween fell on a weekend

Me and Geto Boyz are trick or treatin'

Robbin' little kids for bags

Till an old man got behind our ass

So we speeded up the pace

Took a look back and he was right before our face

We'd be in for a squab, no doubt

So I swung and hit the ***** in his mouth

He was goin' down, we figured

But this was no ordinary *****

He stood about six or seven feet

Now, that's the ***** I'd been seein' in my sleep

So we triple teamed on him

Droppin' them ************' B's on him

The more I swung the more blood flew

Then he disappeared and my boys disappeared, too

Then I felt just like a fiend

It wasn't even close to Halloween

It was dark as **** on the streets

My hands were all bloody from punchin' on the concrete

God damn, homie, my mind is playin' tricks on me