Not Gonna Cry

I know it's not supposed to be easy

Pouring out the bottled up feelings

But I didn't think it would be this hard

Walking to school with a broken heart

And the jacket around my waist feels stupid

I don't know why the hell we do this

Saying I'm sorry like I'm the one

Who's picking us apart for fun

Why am I feeling like this

Why am I feeling like s**t

Why am I all in pieces

I don't even need this oh-oh

Why am I on the bedroom floor

With paranoia and painkillers

Washing away all these feelings

But I know I know I know

I'm not gonna cry for you

Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking

You're a cigarette and I'm quitting

But I know I know I know

I'm not gonna cry for you

I'm not gonna cry for you

You smell of cigarette and perfume

No one f**ks me up like you do

And maybe you thought I would play along

I'd rather be dancing on my own

Do you really think that I'm stupid

Of course I heard all the rumors

But all of the grenades you threw

They just made me bulletproof

I'm done with feeling like this

Done with feeling like s**t

Done with being in pieces

I don't even need this oh-oh

I'm done with laying on the floor

With paranoia and painkillers

Washing away all these feelings

But I know I know I know

I'm not gonna cry for you

Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking

You're a cigarette and I'm quitting

But I know I know I know

I'm not gonna cry for you

I'm not gonna cry for you

I'm not gonna cry for you

I'm not gonna cry for you