Father

Yeah, alone in this room, just me and my conscious

Wondering if the lords really watching cause

If he is then tell me why I've been going through hell

Lately and I just don't feel like heavens an option

Look, I feel the guilt pouring in

I wonder if he feels my pain

Cause everyday its getting more intense

Moms could barely afford the rent

Had to do some shady shit to survive

But I just hope the lord forgives

Is he forgiving like they say he is

Is there anyway away from this

Is there even anyplace where kids go when they pass away

I heard somebody say there is

But I don't know who to trust no more

And grandma said I really shouldn't cuss no more

But I just tell her "I'mma try" and knowing I'mma stay the same

I try to change so many times, I can't adjust no more

Shit, but father when will I see more smiles and frowns

Where do I go when I'm buried deep in the ground

Father why is the world never holding me up

I feel like I'm always letting you down

I feel like I'm always letting you down

I feel like I'm always letting you down

I often wonder bout who I'm a disappointment to

But no matter how good you do, they still point at you

Sometimes I don't know how I get through the day

Cause even though you see me smile, it don't mean I'm okay

I just don't wanna be bothered with questions

Father why these cats always causing problems

I've been constantly stressing

Shit, I wonder if he's even listening to me

Searching for answers, but ain't nobody giving em' to me

Plus my girl needs attention, I can feel the tension

My pops is on a drinking binge

And he's on the break of an intervention

But he taught me so much with only his actions

What I learned from him, he would never imagine

If there was something that I would want him to know

Every mistake he made, it was all meant to happen

No time wasted cause I learned from it all

Made me a better man inside, made me learn when I fall

There's always a reason to get back up on your feet

So if you hear me lord, I hope you could answer this for me

Father when will I see more smiles and frowns

Where do I go when I'm buried deep in the ground

Father why is the world never holding me up

I feel like I'm always letting you down

I feel like I'm always letting you down