This Is What Self-Destruction Feels Like

This isn’t easy

I don’t know how and what to feel

Keeping busy

It does the job but it doesn’t heal

My mind is a fire

And I’m burning love away

It’s getting harder to feel

And they all say

You need to take care of yourself my darling

But they don’t know how it feels to be broken

I can’t help it I feel numb

I’ll wait for the waves to leave and come

I think I’m breaking

I’m a mess in the making

Mmm mmm

A mess in the making

Mmm mmm

I’m getting tired

Of the same old feeling in my chest

I’m not a liar

But I got secrets I can’t confess

Don’t say you love me

Cause I don’t understand those words

It’s getting harder to feel

And they all say

You need to take care of your health my darling

But they don’t know how it feels to be broken

I can’t help it I feel numb

I’ll wait for the waves to leave and come

I think I’m breaking

I’m a mess in the making

Mmm mmm

A mess in the making

Mmm mmm

I’m holding on a tightrope

And know I’m not coming home

Hurting, searching

You know I’m not coming home

This isn’t easy

I don’t know how and what to feel

Keeping busy

It does the job but it doesn’t heal