Mom's Whiskey

I've been drinking all my mommas whiskey

I've been staying up alone at night

I've been thinkin' 'bout mistakes I'm paying for

For which I still don't know the price

I've been actin' like my dirty laundry isn't dirty if I fold it right

I just don't know tonight, yeah

I've been feeling like the Knicks now

Had to sacrifice last year to try and land a pick now

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I'm still pissed Netflix dropped The Get Down

And when I get down, ain't no end, shit that's everyday

Even on the bestest of days, cups in the air 'till the rest can relate, yeah

I've been finding grooves in the madness, yeah

I've been little bruised with the sadness, yeah

I've been drinking booze to distract shit, yeah

I've been becoming the cliche

Don't want them to wait 'till the end of the game to check on me

I ain't instant replay homie, I be way lonely

Be on my phone where they be way phony

I made an album, I think it's amazing

I'm scared you won't like it though

Whatchu know 'bout that?

Like when you write your truth can't say it was typo yo

I mix my gangster with delicate

I've been afraid of the evidence

I'm in my jaded-est elements

Soul is on fire, just hope that my hope doesn't vacate the premises

Fame be the flakiest sedative

And I'm most afraid of irrelevance now

I've been treating women like my heart is Trump and like all my feelings is Mexicans

It ain't that I'm afraid to let 'em in, I'm just an emotional veteran

Emotion just ain't worth the stress in it

And all of these pressures been festering

Little bit of strength and a little bit of paint

What I work with now, that's all I need

Little bit of faith, and a hint of some restraint

Wish I had more round, that's not what I see

They give me applause and a bunch of oos and ahhs at the bars

But homie that's not all I be

2020 they gon' get to know me, me

Sun is comin' shinin' above us and it's a good day

May Jehovah tell me what love is, wish you could tell me somethin'

**** it, lose your friends, lose your soul to trends

Losin' love to make the ends to get the means to make the Ms

To look behind but play pretend and wish that you could play again but different now

The climate feel like winter now

This shit ain't real, it's all just smoke and mirrors, wow

Sinnin' alcoholic, yeah I've been it

Lyin', cheatin', yeah I did it

Wear that shoe, 'cause I fit it, yeah

Are you livin' what you rap 'bout?

Or are you livin' in a sad house?

Or do you really get enough rest?

Like **** it, I'm about to cash out

Rooftop in my hometown

Where the sweet chick is my soul food

Got a new face and a new way

But she only ****in' with the old you

So I been movin' in and out the city

Time to time you gotta cut the lights

Told my shorty I been hella busy

Momma told me don't believe the hype

I been somewhere holdin' down the porch

Livin' free and takin' no advice

Take the Johnny Walker over ice

Devil always puttin' up a fight

I been drinkin', I been drinkin', yeah

I been drinkin' all my momma's whiskey

I been stayin' up alone at night

I been thinkin' 'bout mistakes I'm payin' for

For which I still don't know the price

I been actin' like my dirty laundry isn't dirty if I fold it right, yeah

I just don't know tonight, yeah

I been drinkin' all my momma's whiskey

I been stayin, up alone at night

I been thinkin' 'bout mistakes I'm payin' for

For which I still don't know the price

I been actin' like my dirty laundry isn't dirty if I fold it right, yeah

I just don't know tonight, yeah