As I Was

Why I feel this way after all I heard you say

I see you walk away I should finally feel okay

I have nothing to gain if you came back still

I miss you so much

Never putting up again

With what I don't deserve

Better on my own

Then with your selfish love

And I wanna know

How you got me so down low

I turned a blind eye

Back then when I thought you loved me as I was

I'm tired of all of the pain I've gone through

You care for me if I play by your rules

You turned your back on me

And now it's forever you say

Never thought I could see this day

I tried my best but it wasn't enough

I hope one day you'll recall our good times

I split myself in two

Just to appeal to you

I just realized I have wasted my time

You said you didn't want it to end

Blame me for how it did end

No common ground is all you say

You just want me to beg you to stay

How could you expect me to beg you to stay

When all you do is bring me down when I'm okay

I remember times when all was right but

You want me to forget it all

Never putting up again

With what I don't deserve

Better on my own

Then with your selfish love

And I wanna know

How you got me so down low

I turned a blind eye

Back then when I thought you loved me as I was