Happy Ending

Hmm, I don’t even wanna fucking do this song for real

But I wouldn’t be real if

I didn’tI be sitting by myself and

I be thinking, mama what have

I becomeAll

I wanted was a family but

I when I look

I be the only one

Losing everything but money, everybody left

And I don’t even get to see my young

Only happiness

I get is in the studio

When I get to do another run

On the road, doing shows, get the woes when it slows

Getting cold, getting owed, but the flows getting sowed

I been doing this a minute, but

I think I want to end it‘

Cuz I think

I’m on a higher level when

I goBut the music

I be doing it, be losing it

I'mma make it really tough for me to grow

All I wanted was a family portrait

See my baby’s on a ranch with horses

But I was fucking devil bitches in corsets

I was never really good, then

I torched it

I’m sorry

Mrs. Jackson

I’m speaking for real

And I never meant to make your daughter cry

But I guess

I’m a failure with women

I’m lost and

I feel like

I oughta die

Feel like it,

I’m rotting away, my life is jus’ off in the gray

How much does it cost?

I will pay to lay and be off in a coffin today

I mean off in ashes, this life and after it clashes, if

I get blasted

This is suicide letters all over again,

I thought that

I passed it

But I guess that

I didn’t ‘cuz this one is written

And there is no mending

But I broke,

I'mma a joke when

I croakI jus’ hope that

I won’t be descending

But this ain’t a joke,

I want you to know

That Tech

Nina is never pretending

Alone in my bed with a gun to my head

Asking, where is my happy ending?

YeahTell me who it is?

What about me?

Where is my happy ending?

What about me?

Is this a life worth living?

You know how it begins

But how does it end for me?

Will I ever live?

Or does He have it in for me?

Will this pop before

I stop breathing?

Is there light in this dark

I’m seeing?

Yeah, I put my life in this music,

Nina is inside out

I set my heart out for people, they know what the inside ‘bout

Will they keep feeling

Nina forever this?

I doubtCan never cry for help so if you listening this my shout

I’m searching for the passageway to happiness

But I’m worldly so

I have to lay in nastiness

Yes this a strange year, worldwide fame’s near

But the game's queer, sometime

I feel like

I’m rudolph the reindeer

But instead of a red nose,

I stay in my red clothes

And the music, they said blows is on the top and the cred grows

Can you resurrect a mothafucka that feel like he possess a dead soul?

Deteriorates when inferior state, almost equal to bread mold?

Now as my head goes, wish

I could shed those

Because all of the times the

Nina was shorted when

I bled froze

So now that

I’m cold blooded and hella sick

Is what the med shows, the tred slows

And don’t even think you reviving a dead rose, yeah

Tell me who it is?

What about me?

Where is my happy ending?

What about me?

Is this a life worth living?

You know how it begins

But how does it end for me?

Will I ever live?

Or does he have it in for me?

Will this pop before

I stop breathing?

Is there light in this dark

I’m seeing?

Listen, I’m on the verge of insanity but

I’m competent

I’m breaking, so

I picked this one to vent

The reason

I look away when you talk to me

My brain is producing evilness,

I’m drowning in 151 and rum

I meantThat’s how

I feelI sit in the mirror with this gun and practice how to kill

But I know damn well that the people like me

Really wanna know how to chill

This is life is ‘bout it, check ‘bout it[Incomprehensible]

Think of all the love

I lostBecause my quest is not a meal

I feel like you, stupid, don’t talk to me

I’m cracking up

I don’t mean laughter,

I’m full of bitterness and it’s backing up

And I live with angels but lately demons been shacking up

Tug of war with my spirits, see the blood

I’m hacking up

I love my kids and my fans, inside

I sob harder‘

Cuz you paid the price for my life and it’s right like

Bob Barker

And I won’t pretend that it’s okay,

I’m no facade starter

So I guess my only happy ending is at a massage parlor, yeaa

Tell me who it is?

What about me?

Where is my happy ending?

What about me?

Is this a life worth living?

You know how it begins

But how does it end for me?

Will I ever live?

Or does he have it in for me?

Will this pop before

I stop breathing?

Is there light in this dark

I’m seeing?