歌词
I should have focused on the love
对爱，我应心无旁骛
I should have focused on the love
浸入爱河
And my health before the fame
成名前我郁郁寡欢
I should have told somebody how I felt
我应向学会倾诉内心感受
Instead of tightening the belt around my neck
而不是被生活勒到近乎窒息
I should have asked for help
我应该求助
But I’ve been asking myself everyday
日复一日，我问着自己
If it’s too late for me to make a change
改变是否为时已晚
They say the grass is greener on the other side
人们总说，另一个世界绿草如茵
But I took a look at mine and it looked dry
但我的幻想乡一片荒芜
I guess they lied or maybe I am colorblind
我想是他们说了谎，或许我的世界本就苍白
Or maybe I forgot to give it water and I let it die
又或许我无心灌溉，枯形灰心
‘Cos that’s what I do with everything important in my life
因为这是我生活中重要的事
Yeah, I make it disappear
是我让它消失殆尽
I hide the evidence and act like it was never here
我藏好了证据，然后销声匿迹
I pack my backpack and put it on my back real fast and leave
未雨绸缪，逃之夭夭，争分夺秒
The murder scene behind my back and never looking back at my past again
我总逃避惨痛的过往
Yeah, I really need a friend
我渴求一位挚友
I really need someone that I can let inside my head
得一知己，死可无恨
I’m in hell
水深火热
Help!
救我
I’m lonely and afraid
我被孤独和恐惧包围
I really need somebody by my side until the end
我渴望一束光，伴我前行，直至终结
‘Cos nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression
因为没人教过我如果对抗抑郁
So I’m doing this my way without any lessons
所以我盲目前行
I’m writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions
我正在反思本里记下我的思绪
And then I'm reading them out loud at my therapy sessions
我会正视那些负面情绪，当我接受治疗时
But It’s not working and I don’t know why
但我也不知道为什么
Maybe I was made to be unhappy ‘til the day I die
也许直到死前一刻，我都会黯然神伤
Or maybe my only purpose in life is to hate being alive
或许我此生唯一的目的就是厌恶自己活着
‘Cos every single second of my life feels like a waste of time
因为我活着的每一秒都像在浪费时间
I got bad thoughts on my mind and It's my fault I know
我知道我散发着负能量
I should have never closed my eyes and gone blind I know
我清楚我不该蒙蔽双眼
I should have never lied to myself everytime that I said
我不该再自欺欺人
”I’ll be fine” ‘cos I'm not fine
“会好起来的”可我一点也不好
I don’t even know if I’m alive anymore
我甚至觉得自己已然模糊
‘Cos nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression
因为没人教过我如何抵抗抑郁
So I’m doing this my way without any lessons
所以我有些不知所措
I’m writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions
我正在反思本里记录着我的思绪
And then I'm reading them out loud at my therapy sessions
我会面对我所有的负面思想，在我接受治疗时
‘Cos nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression
因为从始至终是我独身一人在遭受抑郁的折磨
So I’m doing this my way without any lessons
所以我显得笨拙
I’m writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions
我正对此深深忏悔
And then I'm reading them out loud at my therapy sessions
我终会战胜抑郁
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