Heather

2017

The first time you messaged me

First fan I ever had

Put me on when you were sad

Said you hated growing up

You were sure that I'd blow up

Shared my song with all your friends

I could barely pay the rent

Singing to an empty room

But I knew what I meant to you

You got the X's tattooed

Reminding me I have you

Never got to thank you

I wouldn't be here without you

Without you

Without you believing

And now that I'm here without you

Without you

The words have no meaning

No promise was spoken

You're gone and I'm broken

Now I'm barely holding on, holding on

I wouldn't be here without you

Why am I here without you?

2021

Told me that you've come undone

Lost your job and lost your dad

Your biggest fan is all you had

X's covered up with scars

On your arm from self-harm

Messaged me, I don't reply

I wish I knew it was goodbye

Singing to a crowded room

Saved a seat, I looked for you

I made it to your hometown

Guess I'm on my own now

Wish I got to save you

I wouldn't be here without you

Without you

Without you believing

And now that I'm here without you

Without you

The words have no meaning

No promise was spoken

You're gone and I'm broken

Now I'm barely holding on, holding on

I wouldn't be here without you

Why am I here without you?

This is dedicated

If you put me on your playlist

If you showed up to the stages

If I never get to say this

I'm proud of you

For all the shit that's drowning you

And all the noise surrounding you

Hope you find what I find in you

And I hope that you grow old with me

And we turn up til we're 70

Play me at your wedding and you never leave

If you ever need anything

And I don't pick up

Well you still got a friend in me

Wish I said all that to Heather

Now I just hope she rests in peace