i hate waking up

When the sun widens its eyes

I no longer know what's going on in here

Ey-ey

Waking up soon, but I wanna sleep

Nothing is worse than leaving these sheets

Barely awake, still brushing my teeth

Running the tap, rinse and repeat

You were the lady and I was the tramp

But showing you off, I felt like the champ

I was your favourite, but fading away

Leaving saliva all over my face

Movies on Fridays no longer a thing

Huh, I-I feel it sting

What didn't I bring? 'Cause I brought a lot

In case you come back I'll be saving your spot

Try making a difference and showing you life

Stuck at your side, you stuck in a knife

Pouring you wine, you pouring my blood

Wipe out my life, in need of a flood, yeah

I need a flood, I need an end

Scared of the truth, so I'll keep pretending

Don't need a reason, I've been defeated

Now I'm alone, I'll be looking for Jesus

I no longer know what's going on in here

Yeah, ever seen somebody die?

Ever cut your wrists with the bluntest of knives?

Hit your friends, started texting goodbyes?

Ain't nothing left, but death in your eyes

Sometimes people leavin', the lesson's acceptance

The older you get, harder it is to get it

Some people look for you, some look for an exit

Might hurt you, might hate it, but never regret it

I don't run from pain, it made me

How could I ever hate what it shaped me?

Been to hell, how could that devil faze me?

Wish 'em well, even when they all hate me

Let me be, take my soul and finally set it free

Spread my ashes on the seven seas

Let me rest in peace, when I'm dead, deceased

Swear a grave's the only thing that's left for me

I need a flood, I need an end

Scared of the truth, so I'll keep pretending

Don't need a reason, I've been defeated

Now I'm alone, I'll be looking for Jesus

I no longer know what's going on in here

Ain't a discography, this an effigy

I'm a giant, so when I am dying

You had better make sure that I'm buried 7 feet

My reflection deference to the left of me

Cracking under pressure don't let it get to me

You can even break me down chemically

Rapping pain, the only thing that my chemistry

Contains, I think that this meant for me

I think it's meant for me, maybe not meant to be

I'm sick and tired of fighting with enemies

Trying to cry, she lied about everything

I wanna die, but that's a petty thing

I got a lot more I could be giving

Some people hate me, that's a given

Wonder what I could've done, to act like the sun

And put some good use to my energy

I think I'm done, done, done, done

I wanna run, run, run, run

Tried to get some, some, some, some

And I ****ed up my funds, funds, funds, funds

I got like 2 years to be me

And I got like 3 days in a week

Now I got like 4 things that I need

And I bought like 5 pills, I'm asleep

Yeah you know I'm tired as shit

I thought I'd die as a kid

I brought a knife into school

And they told me "It is what it is"

Should've been locked in a prison

Talk about shitty decisions

I had to roam, no intentions

Told me to work for my pension

Nowadays, I've been getting paid

'Cause the music got me some attention