Eulogy

When I, when I, when I, when I (You did good, $lick)

When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell

When I, when I, when I, when I

When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell

When I, when I, when I, when I, when I

Three AM, drinkin' with this pistol on my lap, uh

Six medications, guess there ain't no fixin' that

It's the broken mother****er, [?] 'til I relapse

If I die they might cry 'til they inherit my stacks

Cold ****in' world, tell me what's the word

Only time I speak my heart is when the message come out slurred

People pleasin', always eager to fix a mother****er's problems

Leave me at the bottom, all comfortable with Gomorrah Sodom

I chew on fent and rot my teeth off

Moments of peace and slow heart beats got offered

God I dissed, you gon' save me?

All I can do is laugh and say "C'est la vie"

Woah, was me, I know you get the picture

This type of pain will earn you seven figures

Check my DNA, my RNA come with predictors

This shit is scripture and for what I got there's no elixirs

Feel like I'm not enough

Find myself playin' my dad like Honey Boy and Shia LaBeouf

My momma cryin' as she watch the clock

Text my bro, I love him even though he got my number blocked

I would give up everythin' to see my brothers clean

No second thoughts, it's **** the cost or take me, leave 'em be

Take my money say you love me even if it's lies

That connection so depressin' but it's all I got

When I die just play this ****ing song

I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on

Couple coupes, lotta zeros and a couple homes, none of it is shit for me

Cock the pistol and now I'm-

Head in the clouds, it look like it might rain again

Always holdin' back tears, it's how I manage to pay the rent

Pay the bills, place the bets so I don't have to chase the check

Verified through suicide, the glitz and glamour came and went

Wash my ****in' soul, there's still that one stain is kept

I just wanna be loved, the root of all my pain

Except the type that comes with age and death

I can finally lay and rest, I'm moved the lil' peace

And I'm ready to erase the debt (I, I, I, I)

I never planned on showin' the world the face that hides behind the mask

I always thought the last thing I would hear would be the guns blast

Fill in the black hole in my chest with sex and drugs, but it never lasts, it never lasts

Shit, two years ago Big Pharma should have just cashed me out

Now I got a deviated septum I'ma just wrap me out

Pat me down, ask me how I'm still depressed

All they see is me sad, all they see is lack of death

All they see is what they wanna see

Callin' me a wannabe, I don't wanna be in misery except a pharmacy

Killed that girl I wanna see, I wanna see her heart bleed

When she rips out my ****ing heart and to the pharmacy

I'm a prideful person and take pride in my verses

**** your whole opinion I don't care if it worsens

I'll ruin my reputation and make sure it's on purpose

**** this shit

When I die just play this ****ing song

I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on

Couple coupes, lotta zeros and a couple homes, none of it is shit for me

Cock the pistol and now I'm-

When I, when I, when I, when I

When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell

When I, when I, when I, when I

When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell