what i wanted

I can never tell

When something's going wrong

They told me that

My problems are not everyone's

But anything you need

I'll try and get it done

Though I feel like they

Got me in a hit and run

I love that I'm so frustrated

I hate that I cannot say it

I love that I'm always breaking

I hate this bed but I'm the one who made it

I chase the same thing

Can't trust myself, don't know what I want

I'm in the same place

And it's not what I wanted

Too patient these days

Or maybe I'm just not using my time right

Back to my same ways

And it's not what I wanted at all

I can never tell

When something's going right

How I feel is something

And I just throw aside

Am I looking for something

To feel more alive

Or am I scared do

I just want a place to hide?

I love that I'm so complacent

I hate that I'm always faded

I love that I'm on your playlist

I hate this bed but

I'm the one who made it

I chase the same thing

Can't trust myself

Don't know what I want

I'm in the same place

And it's not what I wanted

Too patient these days

Or maybe I'm just not using my time right

Back to my same ways

And it's not what I wanted at all

This is not how I wanna feel time pass

But I know that it always ends up like that

This is not how I wanna feel time pass

Every day's another moment

That I'm sidetracked

This is not how I wanna feel time pass

But I know that it always ends up like that

This is not how I wanna feel time pass

Every day's another moment

That I'm sidetracked

I chase the same thing

Can't trust myself, don't know what I want

I'm in the same place

And it's not what I wanted

Too patient these days

Or maybe I'm just not using my time right

Back to my same ways

And it's not what I wanted at all

That sounds sick, honestly

Are you fxxkin' with it?