I Must Want It This Way

I never thought that I'd sell out.

I never thought that they'd buy in.

I fought the devil with his handcuffs on,

Then I just let that bastard win.

I've got countless excuses.

I can explain it away.

But when you boil it down,

I must want it this way.

I deal in gazes made of glass.

I traffic smiles made of stone.

I've built this hollow empire to the sky,

And now I live here all alone.

I can justify everything.

I can excuse it away.

But when you boil it down,

I must want it this way.

I know exactly what happened.

I know just what went wrong.

I know you're right here beside me

And you've been there all along.

If I just opened my eyes...

If I just unchained my hands...

If I just hoisted this anchor...

If I just abandoned this plan...

I can frame this in context.

I can absolve any blame.

But when you boil it down,

I must want it this way.