The Watcher

I turned my senses inside out

To fight the sixth one

I strive with myself

I strive against it

Extrasensory perception

Sight, Smell, Taste, Hearing,

Touch overwhelmed by the new shit

I walk alone through burned sensations

Material world escapes me

Nothing seems to move in the ravaged landscape of my eyes but I have a strange sensation

There is another reality, tangible

A strange multiplicity of sensations seizes me now but it has nothing to do with

What I can see, smell, taste, hear or touch.

My conscience distorts

I'm overcome by something stronger, something I can't control

I can't kick it out

Inside/outside conflicts

I can't let it come inside through me

I see myself lying on my back as cold as marble

Wounded outside, Burst inside, I'm beside myself just contemplating

How I'm lost inside me, dead inside, I'm beside myself just contemplating how he's lost

All senses gone out of control

How I'm lonely in this world

Staring at myself, staring at the void

My nerves electrified

Shocked by the undefined

They try to revive myself in vain

Spasms shake my body

Spasms ... I'm alive ... I breathe ...

I regain my strength

I breathe

I regain consciousness

I remember first the unpleasant noise of medical machines becoming distant and unreal

Pleasant and frightening emotions sweeping through me while I detached from myself and floated above my own body

I 've never met deceased relatives or spiritual figures, nor walked through a tunnel to reach a strong and bright light

I was just watching myself dying as a witness of my own ending...

I'm just a watcher...

I travelled too far

I took too much time to come back home, come back to my fragile life

"I could not speak and my eyes failed

I was neither living nor dead

And I knew nothing

Yes I knew nothing

Looking into the heart of light, the silence..."

Wounded outside, Burst inside, I'm beside myself just contemplating

How I'm lost inside me, dead inside, I'm beside myself eyes open staring at the void

Where are the people who saved my life and abandoned me in this hospital?

Where is civilisation?

What are these empty places?

These devastated rooms

I can't say anything or put a word on things

I feel so lonely in my waste world...