歌词
编曲 : SAXON
Produced by SAXON
Mixed by PokeB
Localization by MONICA
夜色渐深，我思绪干涸，却仍无法垂合眼帘
Midnight my mind dry but can’t close my eyelids
指尖在屏幕上踌躇，我究竟能与谁共叙一番
Fingers slide on that mobile but no one to type with
妈妈说我就是太亢奋了
Momma said I’m on hype shit
而我告诉她事实恰恰相反
I told her it’s the quite opposite
我并不想伪装或者隐藏，但我实在无法抵抗
I ain’t tryna hide it but can’t fight it
回忆不断涌入，宛如海浪
Memories they tide in
这些安慰我并不买账
Consolation I ain’t buying
屡败屡战，屡战屡败，结果还是一样
Over and over I’ve been trying
第一个月我们已经成为好友，亲密无间
First month we tight friends
下个月她却只言片语都缄口不提
Next month she went silent
她挑起了所有的争端
Picking up all the fights and
对我的一切都要回应以冷暴力
Respond to everything from me with cold violence
感情不过是相同的剧本不断上演
Relationship is a cycle
再一次喜欢上我所熟识的女孩
Crushing on a girl I know
夜幕降临时无法将她忘怀
Can’t keep her out my head when night’s low
想把我拥有的一切都给予她
Give everything that I hold
直到她终于了解我的心意的那一天
Till one day she finally know
像被追赶的猎物一样仓皇逃开
Run away like from 5-0
无论我走到何方，结局总是一成不变
No matter where I go it’s all the same
我总是不断地回到原点
Going back to where I came
自我毁灭，承担怪罪
Self-destruct, take the blame
难付信任，精神崩溃
Fewer to trust, gettin’ insane
时光流逝，情节轮回
Plots remain while times change
伤疤再起，剧痛又归
Scars reopen with nasty pain
看似是结束，实则是开始
Once it’s over it’s on again
一次又一次，永远不停止
Over again, over again
我可以确定的是
One thing I do know
我哪里也去不了
I ain’t going nowhere
好比涸辙之鱼，樊笼之鸟
I’m stuck here
昔日拥有的美好
Good times I used to own
现在却犹如噩梦般萦绕
Now become my nightmare
我仍挣扎于这恐惧之牢
I’m fighting this fear
这也许可以说是创伤后应激障碍
Probably kind of PTSD
尽管精神科医生说情况还没那么坏
Though psychiatrist say things haven’t come to this way
但是这种感觉实在糟糕
But the feeling’s nasty
治疗焦虑的药物将我的困意清零
Medication of anxiety has got in the way
To a good night’s sleep
我盯着手机屏幕，多希望一个消息的提示音能拯救我于等待的煎熬
I stare at my phone and I wait for a tone
我渐渐感到神志不清，动机不明
My mind is unclear and my motive’s unknown
穹顶之下，能否容得我这个迷失的魂灵
I feel like a lost soul under this dome
我清楚地知道自己想要什么，却不知道该如何得到
I know what I want but I don’t know how to get it
种瓜得瓜，种豆得豆，但为何我的成果甚微
You reap what you sow but my plant is so petty
我明明全身心地投入了，却没什么功劳
Devoting myself but there ain’t no ****ing credit
理智好比一个钟表，我应该时常检查
Sanity like a clock I should frequently check it
我挥洒我的才华直到江郎才尽
Got all the sauce till the jar become empty
他们塞给我的回应犹如腹中难以消化的塑料
Response they be feeding like plastic in a belly
我不断地修复身边人的问题，直到我自己需要求助医生
I fix what I fix till I finally need a medic
你永远无法做好准备去迎接令人痛苦之事的发生
Bad shit happen you can never say you ready
于是我将创伤铸成力量，将痛苦化为朋友
Trauma become my strength, pain become my friend
当我禅心动摇之时，一剂咖啡因也许能将我拯救
When I lose zen a dose of caffeine probably make it better
我是如此忧郁，如蓝切达干酪一般（注 blue 有忧郁的意思，也有蓝色的意思。这里blue cheddar指一种干酪。作者使用了双关语。）
Feel so blue like a piece of cheddar
这该死的天气又与我何干
The last thing I could really give a damn is the ****ing weather
我知道我应该放手了，但是我的心背叛了这种想法
I know I should let it go but my heart tells me no
我一心想成为真正有水准的人，而不是一个笑话
Wanna be a pro I don’t wanna be a joke
我只想遇到我命中注定的女孩，不屑于风流韵事
Wanna meet the girl I don’t wanna be with hoes
我希望无论走到哪，别人对我的信任都始终如一
Want em trust me wherever I go
人们常说，别人的好感是赢来的
People say favor from others is won
我不遗余力地把手里的工作做得无可挑剔
I struggle and make business perfectly done
但半数的人认为我除了逗乐儿一无是处
But half of the crowd think I’m nothing but fun
剩下的人压根不愿给予我一点在意
The others ain’t giving no shit about none
我确实可以和很多人成为朋友，可是其中有多少是经得起时间考验的呢
People befriending but few can stay long
真正让我信任的人，十指就可以数尽了
Trust list is counted with two single palms
一旦产生了越界的情愫，就又会失去一个朋友
Feelings involved and another be gone
一切还是会停留在原样，当我发行这首歌的时候
Shit’ll remain same when I drop this song
我可以确定的是
One thing I do know
我哪里也去不了
I ain’t going nowhere
好比涸辙之鱼，樊笼之鸟
I’m stuck here
昔日拥有的美好
Good times I used to own
现在却犹如噩梦般萦绕
Now become my nightmare
我仍挣扎于这恐惧之牢
I’m fighting this fear
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