Suicide Hotline

It ain't no point to me waking up,

everybody's time I'm taking up,

I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near,

I can't stay here and it's colder there,

I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt,

I slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt,

For me everybody holds a hate,

I got backstabbed and everybody holds the stake,

it's no roads to take I'm in a circle drive,

bustin' at myself and I'm tryna survive,

I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down,

and I ain't got many home boys comin' round,

you don't understand so don't say you do,

I swear I'll put a mother ******' slug in you,

I'm the only one, the lonely one,

and at home loading a gun thinking why not?

I got court comin' up, I stole a truck,

I got a ************ pregnant and I'm broke as ******,

I wanna get high but i got piss test,

I'm always first name on top of the ************t list,

get this, the witch has made my chest,

it's permanent nightly visiting nest,

it ain't no clothes I look good in,

I'm the mother ******' big red train that couldn't,

I got no family I stole they ************t,

restraining orders and I still won't quit,

I hit rock bottom, and I fell in a hole,

and I fell through the floor of that hole some more,

I been missin for a year, nobody's lookin',

I got beat down and my ************t tookin',

I look ahead and all I see is more of the same

or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain!

I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel,

the dreams are gettin' serious think I'm in trouble,

I don't hold memory for more than an hour,

I'm tire as ****** and I'm drained of power,

I ain't half way there and I'm outta time,

I'm like a crushed light bulb, all outta ************ne,

I been around the world but no place is home,

I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome,

I'm butt-naked, I been jackin' off gettin' drunk,

it's my last hours alive who gives a ******?

It don't matter. I'm doing the ************t in the garage,

tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage,

this ************ I loved, I hope she finds me,

still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me,

I'm about to do it,

Can you hold for a second...

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