歌词
I pray I find you at the bottom of the hill
我祈祷能在山底找到你
I pray I make it outta Texas
我祈祷能逃出德克萨斯的家
I pray my A/C come back on
我祈祷空调能像往常一样运作
My momma stuck outside her job
妈妈忙着赚钱养家
My sister just asked for a Lexus
妹妹说她想要一辆豪车
Can Jesus send me a message?
耶稣可以给我发信息吗
What's the point of havin' a best friend if you end up losin' him?
让我知道拥有一个最终会失去的好朋友的意义是什么（指2018年离团的Ameer）
Woah, don't view my text messages
不要看我的信息
Woah don't view my text messages
不要看我的信息
Don't view my bad side
不要看到我不好的一面
Only go on the 'gram to show you ************* the best side
只想让你们看见我在ins上展现的美好一面
Who am I
那我究竟是谁
Who am I? Who am I?
我是谁 我是谁
Why I hide? Huh
为什么要藏起来
Fourth-grade Mary J. Blige
四年级的Mary J. Blige
All I like I made a mill off a lie
就像我编造的无数谎言
And I lie so I write another lie
我撒谎了 我不得不再编造一个谎言
RCA don't know words about y'all
RCA（唱片公司）不知道你们的话
No lies, behind me and my brothers been traumatized
在我和我受精神创伤的朋友们背后 不要谎言了
And I must keep creating truths
而我不得不不断创造真相
And hooks to get outta this hell for myself
把自己从地狱里解救出来
Seashells
贝壳
Dearly departed
亲爱的故友
Look what you've started
看看你造成的一切
I've been so heartless
我做的一切多么无情
I try, I try I try
我尽力了 尽力了
Why?
为什么
Why?
为什么
Why?
为什么
Try
（这首歌应该是写给因为2018年的丑闻而不得不退团的前团员Ameer）
Big dog, I feel like I don't got anybody on my side no more
我感觉再也找不到人一直忠诚陪在我身边了
High is the low, truth be told
最高昂的也是最低迷的 有些真相不得不说出口
It's hard to ignore hard to endure
忽视和忍受这一切太难了
Where's my stamina in this life?
找不到生活下去的毅力
Make sure my family tight
确保我的家人还很亲密
More rubies on my neck, and you catch me at night
脖子上挂着更多的红宝石 你在晚上把我叫了出来
Lookin' immaculate, no one in sight
看起来是那么完美 无人在视线之内
Standards are high, expectation is low
标准很高 期望却很低
Wake up sweatin' at night, mind in the flight
流着汗在半夜惊醒 思绪已飘远
I don't get scared no more when I'm standing on the mountain-top
当你站到山顶之巅 就再也不会害怕
I'm afraid of people dying
但我怕渐渐消逝的人们
Rest in peace Rocko Ray Reeder
安息吧 Rocko Ray Reeder（Matt的爷爷）
Wish you could've took me to Japan
多希望你能带我去日本看看
Back ten years, holdin' my hand, felt like a hundred grand
重回十年前 牵着我的手 仿佛至上荣耀
Wish some letters didn't fade, love will never do the same
多希望 有些信和爱一样永远不会褪色
Out the window screamin' your name, blessings
对着窗外大喊你的名字 祝福着你
My mom tracked, my dad got my back
妈妈重回正轨 爸爸支持着我
My sister graduated, now she racin'
妹妹也毕业了 开始为生活奔波
Love her through the days and whiskey in my hand
手中握着威士忌的日子 我也深爱着她
Bloody colored triggers wrapped around my wrist
血色的扳机缠着我的手腕上
Lookin' magnificent, man
看起来多么壮观
No stoppin' me, no boggin' me down
不要让我停下 不要拖住我
I know myself, me and the obstacles now
我很清楚自己和自己面临的障碍
I done **** on myself too much to not know how to move properly now
我做了太多错事 不知道该怎么回到正轨
On the property now, money gets foul
现在也渐渐赚了些钱
Keep your wits about you
保持你的智慧
Lace stress with truth longer than I
他们夸大了事实
Eyes full of evil, mouth full of vile
眼里充斥着邪恶 嘴里也是污秽
They tracin' your smile
他们勾勒出你的微笑
Stay alert, big dog
保持警惕 忠犬
Only one life is offered to you
你只被允许活一次啊
(Only one life is offered to you)
你只被允许活一次啊
How many sides to a story can there be
这个故事到底还有多少种说法
When you saw it with your own eyes?
你什么时候又亲眼看到真相
I got all my thoughts out on records y'all won't ever hear
在你们没有去聆听的那些唱片里我诉说了我所有的想法
Try to give it time
尝试着让时间愈合一切
Find that truth trickles down, hits the fear
寻找的真相一滴滴掉落 打中了恐惧
And freezes over like a dagger to the spine
然后被冻结 仿佛匕首刺中脊椎
When somebody that you know throws you in the fire
当一个你认识的人把你推进火坑
How do you survive?
你要怎样活下去
I kicked down the door inside a home
我踢开家里的门
I did it all just to save a friend's life
我所做的一切不过是为了救我朋友的命
Little did I know,
我只知道一点
The one who pulled the strings was once on my side
幕后操纵一切的那个人曾和我并肩一起
I had just moved to Texas, tried to make it right
所以我搬到德克萨斯 试着修复这一切（指Dom的朋友被抢劫一案幕后主使也是Ameer）
I do not feel obliged to dismiss the truth
我并不觉得我有义务去忽视真相
Because of how I feel about our time
因为我对我们在一起的时光还感同身受
If I knew what you would do to someone you owe money to,
如果我早点知道你会那样对你的债主
You wouldn't get a dime
那你一分也拿不到
Watchful when you win, sorry 'bout your plans
当你以为赢的时候多注意一点 很抱歉破坏了你的计划
That was all a scam, you won't understand
这些都是骗局啊 你不会明白的
Pass the weight off to your friends and never face the truth
忽视朋友 也从来不面对真相
Because you never learned how to be a man
因为你从不知道怎样成为一个男人
And it's not my fault, and it's not my problem anymore
这又不是我的错误 再也不是我的问题了
That's just where you stand
那只是你身处的地方
That's just who you are
那只关于你
That's your cross to bear
那是你要去承担的十字架
You could talk to God
你可以和你的神诉说
I don't wanna hear, ************
因为我再也不想听了 混蛋
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