Only Fear Of Death

They wanna bury me, I'm worried, I'm losin' my mind

Look down the barrel of my 9, and my vision's blurry

Fallin' to pieces, am I guilty? I pray to the Lord

But he ignores me, unfortunately, ‘cause I'm guilty

Show me a miracle, I'm hopeless

I'm chokin' off ********* smoke

With every toke it's like I'm losin' focus

Fallin' asleep while I'm in service, when will I die?

Forever paranoid and nervous, because I'm high

Don't mention funerals, I'm stressin' and goin' nutty

And reminiscin' 'bout them *****s that murdered my buddy

I wonder: When will I be happy? Ain't nothin' funny

Flashbacks of bustin' caps, anything for money

Where am I goin'? I discovered, can't nothin' save me

My next door neighbor's havin' convo with undercovers

Put a surprise in the mailbox, hope she get it

Happy birthday, *****, you know you shouldn't have did it

Everybody's dyin', am I next? Who can I trust?

Will they be G's, and they look at me before they bust?

Or will they kill me while I'm sleepin'?

Two to the head while I'm in bed

Leakin' blood on my satin sheets

Is there a heaven for a baller?

I'm gettin' suspicious of this *****

The line's busy every time I call her

Now she's tellin' me to visit, who else is home?

I check the house before I bone, so we all alone

After I nut I hit the highway, see ya later!

To all the players, watch the fly way a ***** played her

This ***** is tellin' all her homies

That I can **** her like no other

Now them other ******* wanna bone me

I'm under pressure, gettin' drunk, somebody help me

I drank a fifth of Hennessy, I don't think it's healthy

I see my enemies, they creepin', don't make me blast

I watch the 5-0's roll, the mother****ers pass

By me like they know me, smilin' as they laugh

I put up my middle finger, then I dash

*****s don't like me, ‘cause I'm thuggin'

And every day I'm a hustler lookin' to get paid

They wanna bury me, I'm worried—no need to lie

I pray to God I don't scream when it's time to fry

Nowhere to rest, I'm losin' homies—ain't that a *****?

When I was rich I had clout, now a *****'s lonely

I put the pistol to my head, and say a prayer

I see visions of me dead, Lord, are you there?

Then tell me, am I lost? ‘Cause I'm lonely

I thought I had friends, but in the end a ***** dies lonely

Nowhere to run, I'm in terror, and no one cares

A closed casket at my funeral and no one's there

Is there a future for a killer? I change my ways

But still that don't promise me the next day

So I stay thuggin' with a passion, forever blastin'

I'm bustin' on these mother****ers in my madness

They wonder if I'm hellbound

Well, Hell can't be worse than this, ‘cause I'm in Hell now

Don't make me hurt you, I don't want to, but I will

Seen mother****ers killed over phone bills

Never will I die, I'll be back

Reincarnated as a mother****in' MAC-11,‘cause in Heaven there's no shortage on G's

I'm tellin' you now: ''You mother****ers don't know me''