Headfirst

Maybe I'm not, maybe I am ready to love again

There's one way to find, that is to dive in headfirst

I think that I could try

Start on you and I

Maybe I could dive in headfirst

I could dive in like open water

Tell you 'bout my mom and all about my father

And how I once was married to a pastor's daughter

I guess I could

I'm not accustomed to opening up

I've fallen in love before, but it wasn't enough

And now I'm ashamed like it's sin

6'3", curly blonde hair and a lot of love to give

And now I'm wondering

If being alone to being afraid to being alone

Makes it worth it to jump again

Will I just go numb again?

And do something dumb again?

Like cheat on my best friend?

A familiar, anxious spiral

I could write these words a thousand times

And recite them like my Holy Bible

Maybe falling in love is vital

And if I don't try now

I won't be able to when I'd like to

Maybe I'm not, maybe I am ready to love again

There's one way to find, that is to dive in headfirst

I think that I could dive in headfirst

After all the things I've done

The last time, how I ****** it up

Do I really want new love?

Do I even want new love?

Cause I'm tired of being alone

To being afraid of being alone forever

I wanna find love

But lately I'm thinking that I'm not enough

And whether I could dive in headfirst

Could call you up and talk on the phone

Hold your hand and travel the world

Read new books and write our own

We'd make love, create new blood

Become old folks together

Dive in headfirst