Black Horses

I’m walking through that building and the building’s brick, the children sick

The nuns have sewn-up cunts, priests are walking with their killing sticks

My father’s just a little boy crying in his bed

My mother’s staring at the brains blown out the back of her father’s head

How hard is it? How hard is it to trip out in this mess?

When my heart has just, my heart has just been ripped out of my chest

”I am not no *****” I scream, want no part of what this dream

Am I really just imagining? Can my eyes trust what I’m seeing?

I’m a screwed up human being being screwed up, chewed-up pills

Told you not to shoot up, Mike, I watched you shoot up shoot up still

Told you not to load that gun, watched you shoot that shoot that steel

I do not want that in this nightmare, no not that, that’s too for real

God I fought you tooth and nail but you made me go through all of this

Now I have to call you just to stop this alcoholic ticks

I’m a ticking timebomb and you could kill a donkey with just half the **** that I’m on

It’s time to shut the door on this room right here I’my ve eye had on

Let’s move down the hallway further, I can see them raping my mom

Back in Catholic school, acid tripping with my tie on

The walls inside my house were not the ones to be a fly on

My face is looking older, no shoulder to cry on

This place is getting colder, I just want a bed to die on

I should’ve died much younger, I’m drowning under water

Old enough to see my son, I was too young to meet my daughter

The fetus has a spirit, I hear it from a bassinet

That’s empty but I keep looking at it every time I’m passing it

What the **** you laughing at? Have a little sympathy

Some empathy, you bastards always acting uncompassionate

I’m basking in my past, it’s an assassin

This assassin got my future by the throat with the butcher knife and slashing it

Raw from my emotions now they’re back to take the last of it

My childhood was stolen from me, **** it now I’m trapped in it