Drug$ II

Blunts in my lips as I take a first ****

Looking for spare change just to pay for this ****

But no matter what I do these thoughts remain

I get high when I feel pain

Cause I think that helps my senses

More aware more up and restless

But I just yelled at my mom

Is it drugs or a broken heart why I’m reckless

I came with terms to the fact

That I guess I never recovered

From the heartbreak, pain, and misery

That came with last summer

I can’t tell the difference between

Nightmares and desires

I close my eyes and reminisce

I see death and feel inspired

Couldn’t sleep last night

Because I know that it’s over between us

I’m not better anymore

Because I know that what we had was real

And in some distant place in the future

We see each other in our new lives

I’ll smell at you with joy,

And remember how we spent the summer

Beneath the trees

The best love, is the kind that awakens the soul

That makes us reach for more

And

Plants a fire in our hearts,

That brings space in our minds

And that’s what you’ve given me

That’s what I’d hope to give to you forever

Always talking about my problems

And the **** that’s in my ****** head

You would always tell me it’s okay

As we lay in my bed

I was finding peace within the words

That you would say to me

Now you stay away from me

And life just ain’t okay with me

I manifest the madness

In hopes that you’d maybe notice

That I’m falling off the deep end

Screaming take my heart and note

That it makes no difference if I’m living

If I’m sitting here just wishing

I could buy you like a drug

And form you like a new addiction

Yeah