18 Years

Everything you wanted in your life

Has happened to you now

But you're standing in the courtyard

Mourning new lost friends

Whose lives were cut short before the summer's end

And the boy you want so bad is sitting courtside

With miss everything you hate

And it shapes the way you look at men

And you're bothered by the weight of having to pretend

That it's still summer but it's not summer

18 years

Chained to my fears

In too deep losing sleep

Tragedies reminding me of why I'm losing sleep

I'm in too deep

I give up I give up talk to me

I give up I give up talk to me

Every boy you seem to trust

Loves to let you down

They're always standing on the edge of what makes sense

Like it's tryna' focus frame with a dirty lens

And the girls who never let you let it down the way you give it up

So you fill your time with chemicals

And you know the skin hardly memorable

Not like this summer not like this summer

18 years

Chained to my fears

In too deep losing sleep

Tragedies reminding me of why I'm losing sleep

I'm in too deep

I give up I give up talk to me

I give up I give up talk to me