Kills Me

I wrote this for you cause calling ain't gon fix what's been wrong

We've been holding on to this for too long

I would say your name but really that's a secret to some

Yea you got your alias pretty young

And isn't that a modern story

Model house this ain't a dormitory

You've been in this ****in scene since you was 16

It's gonna take more than a year to wipe the slate clean

But woman you'll always be my Ateam

I ****in loved you but we lied and cheated

Jean's house still undefeated

Everybody all coked up and weeded

Yea you got whatever you needed

And let's be honest those nights often repeated

Played the victim role just to give myself the out

Always keep our status in doubt

I got the fours seasons suite

Four reasons to creep

Called the next morning like I must've blacked out

We both know the truth but we let each other slide

I hate to say it but that ain't the way to play it now I realize

We went too far baby can't get back

And it kills me to think about that

Cause we were perfect, down deep but the surface was scratched

My soulmate now forever detached

And it cuts deeper knowing that your father just passed

And I wish I was the bed where you crashed

I wish I was the shoulder to cry cause you still on my mind

But there ain't no going back to the past

All I know is things will look up keep your head held high

And your next man I hope he your last

I can't believe that it had to be this way

I can't believe that it had to be this way

Yea I wanted you forever in a day

But the time never really went our way