Instrument of My Own Destruction

In a raging abhorrence of breathing

and seeing the daylight

amidst these walls I’m lifeless

slowly giving in to the famine of my soul

this worn out mind vanishes

nothing can satisfies, nothing can fill it

I watch the void I have inside

beholding while it devours me

I have come to the place

where sorrow voids all kindness

all joy, all pleasure

I turn into an instrument of my own destruction

it is a witness of my decline

everyone can see disgrace in me

a smile can’t be drawn in a surly face

that has come from nowhere

and it goes nowhere

thus I entrust myself to the void

to despair...