Throw Myself Away

My mind goes so fast

I’m just trying to slow it down

I know I give the impression

that I’m independent

But I need a body right now

Giddy up, giddy up

Give me a crush

But it’s never enough

I need the rush

You see I get validation

As soon as I get naked

I know I should treat me sacred

But secretly I'm praying

That we’ll make it into daylight

But they only love me when it’s night time

I throw myself into other boys arms

Just to get over the other one

I throw myself away and break my heart

To get over the love that died

I don’t know why I try, I tried

I don’t know why I try

I don’t know why I try, I tried

I don’t know why I try

When true love don’t last

I get drunk and I run around town

I squeeze myself into dresses

Get real obsessive

I’m not his possession, I’m out

Giddy up

Tell me I’m lush

Make a real big fuss

Pretend that it’s love

You see I get so frustrated

And I text him and I hate it

I should lower my expectations

but secretly I’m praying

that he’ll come over tonight

Say he’s sorry and that everything’s alright

I throw myself into other boys' arms

Just to get over the other one

I throw myself away and break my heart

To get over the love that died

I don’t know why I try, I tried

I don’t know why I try

I don’t know why I try, I tried

I don’t know why I try