歌词
If I saw you in person, I'd beg for you back
要是再见到你，我肯定会求你回来
Scream, cry about all the good that we had
哭泣着叫喊着，为过去美好的种种
Your gaslight would burn all night on full blast while I beg you to listen and hand you your ass
让我怀疑自我，你又要发作整晚，听不到我的诉说，只有将你戳穿
Your backbone would bend so much it would snap
你的骨气已消磨殆尽
My reason wouldn't fix your past
我的存在也治愈不了你的过去
You made up in your mind, you can only trust yourself
你决心已定，谁也不信除了自己
Let me know how that works out for you in your living hell
你就这样活受罪吧
If you'd just give in to your attainable needs
你就这样不上进吧
So us mind-reading fools wouldn't have to kill your disease
这会读心的傻子也就不用再为你费心
And it creeps up on me like a horrible anxiety dream except I'm awake believing
恐惧焦虑噩梦般向我袭来，我却异常清醒
Only breathing is keeping me living
早已奄奄一息
I guess forever to you meant a means to an end
你的永远不过是终点
While my forevеr love drug is gifting me bends
我的永远是爱情灵药的转弯
I yеll to myself as I'm making your bed
为你铺床时我对自己大喊
Turn off the house alarm but not the one in my head
关了警报关不掉脑子里的凌乱
I go out to the front yard where we planted fruit trees
走到院子里我们种下的果树跟前
That will feed your next lover the vitamin C
维生素C滋润你的下一段情缘
I'll be up on that hill with too much to say
要到哪里消化我的一肚子苦水
Unconditional love making me stay
无条件的爱让我卑微
And I think of that moment, that night, that day, when you beg “please come here, please stay”
那天那晚那个时刻，你请求着“来陪我，别离开我”
With the ring and a spiel, you moved the motion so I had to steal
一枚戒指，一口巧舌，你发起攻势，我只能苟且
You loved me with your good moods, attacked me with your old wounds
开心快活你才爱我，隐痛复发你只伤我
I guess your passive aggression was still your best, babe
你的被动攻击总能招招致命
But it creeped on us and never now seems so obvious
但如今一切已昭然若揭
More than ever I'm grieving
悲伤不可断绝
Only breathing is keeping us living
爱已奄奄一息
You create in your mind that people don't like you
你胡思乱想别人不喜欢你
You laugh at the Pisces but truly it haunts you
你笑双鱼痴，可也困扰着你
You think you'd know better, you've done this your whole life
你总觉得你觉得的才是对的真的，你从来都是如此
You’re less than insane 'cause you don't expect change
你还疯的不够彻底，因为你不相信改变
Your comfort and sadness makes life what it is
安慰与悲伤弥漫在生活的角落
Can't convince you of your happiness
说服不了你其实拥有快乐
Even if I did, you'd find cruel of my intent
即便说服了你，你也觉得我不怀好意
Make it your home, your victim kingdom
你就活在你被迫害妄想症的王国吧
Just you on your throne
你就守着这个无人争夺的宝座吧
No love
爱已不在
No love
爱已消磨
Didn't creep up on you
你不是无意的
It's a choice you carefully chose
你清楚地选择
Quit wavering, I can feel you retreating
别犹豫了，我知道你放弃了
Only breathing is keeping you living
你已奄奄一息
Okay, here we go
唉，又开始了
You swear I don't appreciate you
你控诉我不感激你
Well, I don't use sex as thank you
得了，做爱不是道谢
Sure bent over backwards to be available for you
使出浑身解数，只为了迎合你
I was there from the get-go
从最开始我就一直陪着你
I'm not your trophy or your coattail
可我不是你的战利品，也不是你燕尾服
Fame must have changed your point of view
名气改了你的脾气
I'm the writer not the muse
我只写歌远非缪斯
Better popstar than partner
我作歌星更胜伴侣
Now you got all you wanted
如今你功成名就
You can pay off your problems ‘cause your ego won't bargain
算算旧账吧，自负如你也不会讨价还价了
Play me like a melody, made me your enemy
于你我不过是段旋律，终于我成了你的敌军
Cause blame gives you the courage to act on infidelity
责备更助长了你背叛的勇气
You're slave for the new
自甘成为新欢的奴隶
Clumsy love needs a fix
爱得笨拙，亟待填补
It's not the new one's fault, the captain steers the ship
不是她的错，是你这船长掌的舵
It's predictable not special, that skin serves its devil
我已司空见惯，不作妖对不起你这幅好皮囊
A true lust romance is never successful
色欲风流终难长久
We're the perfect example
你我不就现身说法
And all jokes aside, I'm wishing you good life
但玩笑归玩笑，我仍愿你一切安好
Remember this time to let it honesty guide
这次记得以诚相待
I guess we really did try, it feels right to say goodbye
我们尽力了，道别也心平气和
It's rarer these days, but when you cross my mind
虽然少很多了，但我仍会触景生情
It creeps up on me, that romanticization disease
情殇来袭无声无息
And then I break on healing
我会治好自己
I'm breathing, I'm free, I am living
呼吸，自由了，我活过来了
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