Reflection

The reflection of my face

Some wouldn't even recognize

Oh, who put me in this place

I wouldn't even recognize

Time has been so cruel

I could've blamed me but I blame you

I do

Lately I feel lost, tell me if you find me

It's hard to put the past behind me

When my mind just sits there and keeps reminding me

Of all the bullshit that I kept inside me

I'm not lying when I tell you I feel like I'm lost

It just feels like I'm trapped in my thoughts

I just sit there and think, and I think, and I think

And I think and I think, I lost it all

I am at home, I got my back against the wall

I feel hella alone I got no one to call

And I'm still on my own because no one's involved

Tell me, where do I go when everything falls?

Damn, I guess that's why I'm making this song

I just sit and reflect on every single thing that went wrong

My best friend, he turned out to be a fake

The real definition of becoming a snake

And I lost my girl too and that was my mistake

I put music above her and it took her place

And she's the one I love and my heart it just breaks

Because now I'm alone, there's no girl to replace

See I tried to re-date, but it's always a waste

Ever since she left nothing's ever been the same

Lately it feels like I just been wilding out

There's too many things that I'm finding out

And my passion has been slowly dying out

And I'm still inside of a hole and I'm climbing out

Just to stumble over, but I'm trying now

Lost my composure, so I write it out

I'm feeling depressed and I'm hiding out

I think that's why I'm crying out

The reflection of my face

Some wouldn't even recognize

Oh, who put me in this place

I wouldn't even recognize

Time has been so cruel

I could've blamed me but I blame you

I do

I guess I'm to blame, can't lie to me

Walk in the room and they start eyeing me

Feeling overwhelmed with my anxiety

So I stay to myself and I overthink quietly

I stare in the mirror and I vent there alone

You say you been there when I'm on my own

You say you'll be there when I know you won't

And you say you love me when I know you don't

I swear this depression isn't a mutha****in' joke

Anxiety too, I deal with them both

I been losing my faith and my hope

Still haven't found a way I can cope

Yeah, I think loving myself is the very thing that I need most

'Cause, I lost everyone else that I thought I would always keep close

And to think, I gave you all that I can

You took advantage of me and ran

I made you who you are now I ask

What would you flip on me I don't understand?

Told myself never again, never reach out for a hand

Never put trust in a friend, never give up where you stand

I gave everybody a chance just to see we didn't last

Nothing that I been doing has been panning out

I'm suffering and you stand around

And I'm falling so ****ing hard I could smash the ground

Wishin' that I could have my mom and dad around

Anxiety got the best of me and I'm spazzing out

Exhausted so much I feel like just passing out

I wanted the fame, you can have it now...

'Cause I ain't the same you can ask around, 'cause

The reflection of my face

Some wouldn't even recognize

Oh, who put me in this place

I wouldn't even recognize

Time has been so cruel

I could've blamed me but I blame you

I do