Dreams From the Pit

Lately when I sleep perchance to dream

I'm driven to the brink of madness

By the things I've seen

With perfect clarity I see

From all the chapters of my life

Faces staring at me

Mocking me with laughter full of spite

Falling deeper into this sea of doubt

My lungs are filling up

And it seems there's no way out

When I wake and I reflect on what I've dreamt

I can't shake the penetrating

Stares that haunt me with contempt

I've been judged and been found wanting

By a jury of my fears

And this feeling of such worthlessness

Is tearing me to pieces

Falling deeper into this sea of doubt

My lungs are filling up

And it seems there's no way out

I never saw the thread as it was sewn

Connecting all those faces I had known

But somehow now they all respond in kind

I'm struck down like a child

And I'm afraid I'll lose my mind

Please release me

I don't want to feel this any more

I'm terrified that this could be

A glimpse of what's in store

At Peter's Gate

I can't shake it

I've been judged and been found wanting

And I'm worthless

Falling deeper into this sea of doubt

My lungs are filling up

And it seems there's no way out

Falling deeper into this pit of dreams

The nightmares stay with me

And I struggle not to scream