Vanta Black (Redux)

Be hopeless.

Be nothing.

Injected in my veins I see my world turn black

The perception that I’ve gained, I can never take back

Logic, reason and eternal regret

That I will never forget, that I will never forget

Broken down and beaten by subconscious mind that never ceases

To betray me

I give up, I submit, I admit that I am worth nothing to anyone anymore

These thoughts I had so long ago, overshadowed by the constant reminder that I’m irrelevant

Swallowed up by these overbearing waves of shame and guilt

I wish I had known these truths

I wish I knew what I was

I wish I knew what I’d become

****ing irrelevant

I worship the pain, and I worship the guilt

So I dream of ending it all now

To depart from a world of pathetic self indulgent, sycophantic cunts

Please spare me the pleasantries

You’re not in this for me, you’re in this for yourself

To try and prove to us that there is a god who truly loves us

But you’re wrong

False idols and lies won’t save your soul

Only the blackened embrace of the void will set us free

So pray to your god, he wants you all to suffer

“I have a deathwish, and I will see it to the very end

I’ll hang by my neck until I’m ****ing dead

Let my ashes blow to the wind

So that my name may never be said again...”

Let me close my eyes to sleep

Eternally

I have a deathwish, and I will see it to the very end

Let my ashes blow to the cold wind

So that my name may never be said again